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I've always been the kind of girl
that hid my face
So afraid to tell the world
what i've got to say
But i have this dream
bright inside of me.

Do you know what it's like
to feel so in the dark
To dream about a life
where you're the shining star
Even though it seems,
like it's too far away
I have to believe in myself,
it's the only way...

Mitä silmät ei nää,
sen sydän ymmärtää.
Totuutta etsii kestävää
ehkä tänään, ehkä tänään
tähän kaikkeen vaivaan.

Mitä silmät ei nää,
sen sydän ymmärtää
Jossakin kaipaus hellittää.
Ehkä tänään, ehkä tänään
joku löytää taivaan.

Singing..
It releases all the pressure of by back
And gives me wings
so I can fly away
into my own world
where a word stress is unknown.

Kivaa, kuumetta -_-"

I've been living my life quite normally, every girl hates herself
somewhere on the way of growing up.
But that hate's disappearing now.
Well, not disappearing, but fading into the background.
I don't notice it much anymore.

Instead of seeing just me and my selfloath,
I see different things, like other people and that they are the same as me.
Other people who has the same feelings I have.
Hate, love, adoring, confusion, lonelyness.

I see some people from another angle.
And I notice, that maybe I can't see everything about them
only by looking at them.
They have they're own personalities, fantasies, dreams...

And I've started to understand myself better.
I've been living a lonely life wrecklessly, with no direction.
I have to start to think about my future.

Finally my eyes are opening.
This has happened once before, but it came too suddenly,
and I wasn't ready for it and flipped out.
I drew back inside my shell, behind my walls, and I locked the door.
No one weren't able to break through.
Now, when I slowly peek behind the door, it comes with a natural speed,
and I have some time to get used to the changes.

Have you ever had this experience?
When it's like you've been hiding in the shadows without noticing it yourself,
and when you light up a candle, you start to see things you've never seen before.
After your eyes has gotten used to the hollow light that candle makes,
you light up another candle.
And after awhile, you see things clearly.
It just takes time to get used to the sudden changes.

And that feeling makes you happy. It gives you optimistic energy
that gets you through the day.

Maybe these feelings are becouse it's spring and summer is coming..
But I'm glad, that I'm no longer completely in the shadows anymore.

Watch out people, I'm on my way!

Tein ton Duskin pään rungon, ja siitä tuli liian iso -_________-"
Niimpä tietenkin..

Jippii, koira oppi avaan mun huoneen oven, ja se meni sit ja söi melkein kaikki karkit mitä mulloli mun karkkikulhossa -_________-"