I've started to feel more free and happier now during these days of pause in my relationship and I guess if Kelmy understanded me, I'm single now and so is he. Dunno if he did. And Kelmy; dw, we are still good friends. :3 It's enough for me, hope it's enough for you. You know, love isn't always enough big reason to stay together and I'm sorry about it. Just not up to hurt you, cuz I already know where relationship like that leads if we try more. It leads to that we will break up in angry way and we will hate each other too much to be friends anymore. So it's better for both of us.
And I mean I guess that the feeling that my mental healthy was going lower was a sign that ''Hey! Let's quit it here or this will end in bad way or worse, I will be a total lunatic again.''. Atleast I've learned something from Spiff, leave it there or be a lunatic later on. Experienced that so no thank you again plz. I wanna try to be happy person now, I don't want to be that same lunatic silent maniac again, too depress'd to even think what's best to self, hurting self all the time and doing stuff that ppl can't understand...=Being completely lunatic. I don't want that and I hope Kelmy understands. And my feelings are fading, that's a good reason too.
o/
-,- joo tälläsenki jaksoin lisätä, uuden altterini pääkuva ku tuo kokokuva olisi ollut liian iso.