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Ei enää ikinä kahvia, ei enää ikinä kahvia, ei enää ikinä kahvia, ei enää ikinä kahvia
Mwauhm..!
Psykolla klo 10:40 vain huomatakseni, että oikea aika lappu olikin takin taskussa ja aikani oli 12:00. Sitten Lappeenrannassa kolme tuntia pyörimistä, wohhooo! Viimesen eli kolmannen reiän viimein vasempaan korvaan kävin ottamassa ja sitten vielä lisää pyörimistä. Eksyin lasilliselle Onnekkaisiin Apinoihin ja sieltä asunto kauppoihin, krääääh.

I'm so sick of these dejavu's that come out of nowhere. Things that are 100% certain to not have happened in the past. Yet the situation is all familiar, words, people present, feelings.
The season has been so hectic I'm already crying for a straight answer. I want to know what's going to happen. Am I to meet someone important. Is my life gonna have an unexpected turnaround. I want to know that for sure. Not just "warning signs" like I should prepare for something, all this cautiousness just burns me out...

I avoid death as much as possible. I don't want anyone to get hurt. Then why do I dream of pure slaughter and blood tripping off from on my hand.
My blade all red and rusty from all the blood. Crimson cloak on myself from all the blood. Why I see myself smiling in the middle of all the dead bodies. Laughing like a madman like I've had my satisfaction.
I only seek peace and balance. Maybe the balance is what my dreams bring.

This made me think
http://www.newgrounds.com/portal/view/588914

If it would mean I was to burn myself in the end. Yes I'd say it was totally worth.
If there would be devils walking among us. I would sell my soul for true love that would last for few months. I wouldn't care if I died after that.
I want to know what it is. Even if the price is my death after those few months. Any human kin' would die happy, yes I said ANY human kin would die happy if they finally found true love and it was clear...

I fantasize a lot so even if I'd get sent to hell for loving instead of the void I want. Atleast from hell. There's always a way out...

I feel like a dream is coming true. I feel full of hope, I really feel joy for the very first time in ages...

Is it real, could it be a lie I questioned. What if it was another sick game...

I asked from the sky and it gave me a shooting star, oh how I cried for the moment. It's like I would've been given the sparkle of life back in to my heart.

Now I finally think I got it. What my worst nightmares have told me.

It isn't like dying for real. But those have made me see... It has been kindofa shock therapy created by my own mind. Just to make me realize that as my father died. My image died too.

I followed him as much as I could, I wanted to live up to him, make him proud. Since he decided to suicide. All my goals died. I wanted to live the way he pointed me. But since he died. No way he can point me a way again.

All what he taught, all what he believed in, I believed in. Everything to zero.

All those nightmares, all this suffering just to realize the old me. Literally died. The old me, doesn't exist anymore.

Kyllä minä tykkään olla avoin kirja ja levitä silmille samantien.

En pidä salailusta tai piilottelusta ellei kyse ole privaatista asiasta.

Hyvin rauhallinen, suorasukainen ja hiljainen tapaus. Seuraan, keskustelen, neuvon ennemmin kuin johdan. Vastaan parhaani mukaan kun kysytään.

Tavallaan annan avaimet elämääni hopealautasella ja katson samantien luottaakko vai ei. Offense is the best defense.

Hi

Hi

How's you

Good

You

Good too

So what about

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*Denied*

Wtf did I do wrong again?

Lopputunnari. Ota se, toista niin monta kertaa kahen tunnin aikana kun vaan voit. Sekoa.


TULI JUMALAUTA SELVÄKSI, ON HERTAN MAAILMA!!!!!!!!!



Saatana............... -_-'

Yea it was hard getting any sleep.

+ I had a nightmare. Bleagh better try to forget it. That was gross...