IRC-Galleria

What the hell is this feeling, another being that has a fight of life, why the hell do I get mad about it. When even don't know this person. Why does it make me mad if one doesn't raise it's hand for it's own rights. Why do I care about a foreigner I haven't even seen for real. Why do I care. Why do I want to throw myself in front of a bullet aimed at another one. Is it because I don't care about my own life? Is it because I think I will make it out alive? I don't know... What makes me this way... Why... I'm furious if someone else wants to die, lower their fist down because they think it's not worth it to fight. What can I do? I can't do anything when one's all the way on the other side of the goddamn world.
AAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAHHHHHHHHHHH..! Even the goddess of destiny and goddess of faith love teasing me because of my trait. I get thrown in to every damn fight where one has already given up and doesn't let me affect anything! Only because if one doesn't believe in itself I wanna show what one can do. I wanna prove what one can stand against. Yet it seems I'm always too late. As if I'd be bullied.
Give me my own real fight to fight damnit! When I get the damn chance I will take the chance to fight, IT'S MY EXTACY FOR GODDESS SAKE! Fighting for the right thing IS my extacy. I'll raise myself from the dead to finish it. I can't stand this feeling... I want to fight for someone. I want to prove myself useful. I don't care what I'm up against. I'm a damn madman when it comes to war. I want to feel useful. Even if the opponent could laugh at me I want to stand proud.



I don't know how I got here, but I refuse to stay
I betrayed myself when I let others have their way
But I am holding on, my finger on the pulse
The sound of my heart pounding tells me there's still hope

PRE-CHORUS:
But people don't like when you put up a fight
And slowly, ever so slowly, I am losing mine

CHORUS:
I'll fight! (Fight!) Fight! (Fight!)
Fight or be taken out alive
(Fight!) Fight! (Fight!)
Nowhere to run, nowhere to hide
Standing on the edge, am I better off dead?
How could I forget that I'm better than this?
I've come too far to fade tonight
Fight or be taken out alive

My thoughts are racing faster than my body can react
The danger doesn't register, the fear feels like an act
Don't pull the plug, I swear this isn't how I want to go
The sound of my heart pounding tells me there's still hope

PRE-CHORUS

CHORUS

(I survived on life support
But I'm stronger than I give myself credit for
These conditions only cure
When we prepare ourselves for war)

I survived on life support
But I'm stronger than I give myself credit for
These conditions only cure
When we prepare ourselves for war



You're not running just enough of a wreck
To hold the hurt heart everybody expects
And I know you wrote a history of making a mess
Misunderstood's an understatement at best
How long, how long will you demand my sympathy
We all know hurt so why do you feel the need to

PRE-CHORUS:
Put on a pretty face, give them a pretty taste
No one's buying it anyway

CHORUS:
You're so tired trying to rewind the mess you've made of your own mind
But the pieces won't pick up themselves you know
You can fight just like you've been taught, it won't undo the life you've got
'Cause the pieces won't pick up themselves you know

You're not running just enough of a wreck
To hold the hurt heart everybody expects
And I know you wrote a history of making a mess
Misunderstood's an understatement at best
You say you try, you're after something better
It doesn't show, you're still not put together

PRE-CHORUS

CHORUS

Everybody knows liars never make it for long
I am getting close, I can see just what's going on
Everybody knows, everybody knows (Whoah-oh, woah-oh)
I remember what you were before you gave it away
You've never been the type to watch the pieces fall where they may
And now you've let it go
But I know you know (Woah-oh, woah-oh)

Rupean helposti käyttämään sanoja tai lauseita jotka vain kuulostavat hyvältä oli sitten toisella kielellä tai ei. Tähän ystäväni totesi, "Ja sie ihmettelet miksei kukaan ymmärrä sinua"

Ei enää ikinä kahvia, ei enää ikinä kahvia, ei enää ikinä kahvia, ei enää ikinä kahvia
Mwauhm..!
Psykolla klo 10:40 vain huomatakseni, että oikea aika lappu olikin takin taskussa ja aikani oli 12:00. Sitten Lappeenrannassa kolme tuntia pyörimistä, wohhooo! Viimesen eli kolmannen reiän viimein vasempaan korvaan kävin ottamassa ja sitten vielä lisää pyörimistä. Eksyin lasilliselle Onnekkaisiin Apinoihin ja sieltä asunto kauppoihin, krääääh.

I'm so sick of these dejavu's that come out of nowhere. Things that are 100% certain to not have happened in the past. Yet the situation is all familiar, words, people present, feelings.
The season has been so hectic I'm already crying for a straight answer. I want to know what's going to happen. Am I to meet someone important. Is my life gonna have an unexpected turnaround. I want to know that for sure. Not just "warning signs" like I should prepare for something, all this cautiousness just burns me out...

I avoid death as much as possible. I don't want anyone to get hurt. Then why do I dream of pure slaughter and blood tripping off from on my hand.
My blade all red and rusty from all the blood. Crimson cloak on myself from all the blood. Why I see myself smiling in the middle of all the dead bodies. Laughing like a madman like I've had my satisfaction.
I only seek peace and balance. Maybe the balance is what my dreams bring.

This made me think
http://www.newgrounds.com/portal/view/588914

If it would mean I was to burn myself in the end. Yes I'd say it was totally worth.
If there would be devils walking among us. I would sell my soul for true love that would last for few months. I wouldn't care if I died after that.
I want to know what it is. Even if the price is my death after those few months. Any human kin' would die happy, yes I said ANY human kin would die happy if they finally found true love and it was clear...

I fantasize a lot so even if I'd get sent to hell for loving instead of the void I want. Atleast from hell. There's always a way out...

I feel like a dream is coming true. I feel full of hope, I really feel joy for the very first time in ages...

Is it real, could it be a lie I questioned. What if it was another sick game...

I asked from the sky and it gave me a shooting star, oh how I cried for the moment. It's like I would've been given the sparkle of life back in to my heart.

Now I finally think I got it. What my worst nightmares have told me.

It isn't like dying for real. But those have made me see... It has been kindofa shock therapy created by my own mind. Just to make me realize that as my father died. My image died too.

I followed him as much as I could, I wanted to live up to him, make him proud. Since he decided to suicide. All my goals died. I wanted to live the way he pointed me. But since he died. No way he can point me a way again.

All what he taught, all what he believed in, I believed in. Everything to zero.

All those nightmares, all this suffering just to realize the old me. Literally died. The old me, doesn't exist anymore.

Kyllä minä tykkään olla avoin kirja ja levitä silmille samantien.

En pidä salailusta tai piilottelusta ellei kyse ole privaatista asiasta.

Hyvin rauhallinen, suorasukainen ja hiljainen tapaus. Seuraan, keskustelen, neuvon ennemmin kuin johdan. Vastaan parhaani mukaan kun kysytään.

Tavallaan annan avaimet elämääni hopealautasella ja katson samantien luottaakko vai ei. Offense is the best defense.

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Wtf did I do wrong again?