Damn there you go again, got yourself another one, younger even..
and still you ask if i'm ok? ok? how in hell could i be..god your so self loving are'nt you?
funny thing this relationship people talk about, none of it is true, no glamour, no fuzzie dreams, no romantic gestures, no fairytale, i sure as hell did'nt notise any of it, maby you're just really bad at all that..?
yes you wore (underline that, WORE) my first real true love, but you'll never let me in,
so if you love me let me go, there's a part of me you will never get to know, 'cause my heart is just to dark to care right now, no i'm not perfect eighter,
but i'm not at least a monster like you, childish behavior,
yes you sold me out only to save yourself, stupid man, stupid me.
why don't you goddamn just bury me like everything else we had, and everything else you ever had, yes i feel rage, it's ok.
i'm not ok,
no, 'cause i can't destroy you, you are already self-destructing, should be fun to watch, but now i see you with her, and it was nothing like i thought it would be.
I wish you all the luck in the world..hell i'm a bad liar.
if only you could dissapear like cigarrett smoke in the air,
i shiver, 'cause you spat on me like i was your worst enemy,
think about it- well no use..you have'nt used that brain of yours since 1978.
Still i can't help but wonder, what if? what if you were'nt such an great ass hole,
what if you would be an actual grown man, maby you will some day,
to think i've spent SO much time on you, done practically everything- maby i could even say that i used to tear my heart open for you,only to get stabbed where it hurts, well we get scarred, but you don't seem to..oh, i forgot for a second that you're not human, sorry i should'nt be so mean, but it just feels soo good.
god i wish i was 600km from here, run away, had that thought a zillion times.
but hey, if life was easy we would all just be spoiled brainless brats, and that's no fun..
I ask of you one favor: Walk out of my room, out of my apartment, fall down each and every step of the stairs,they're 40 (i've counted) ,walk out of my sight, please just walk out of my life, then finally i can move on.
Nopea ja mukava on asiointi