IRC-Galleria

Tämä gallup mittaa, kuinka hyvin tunnet sinulle läheisen henkilön. Se voi olla kuka vain sinulle tuttu, sukulainen, kaveri, seurustelukumppani jne. Täytä seuraavat kohdat ajatellen yhtä sinulle tuttua henkilöä, jonka jälkeen voit haastaa muita tuttaviasi tekemään tämän sinusta.

Kaikki etunimet: ööö.... Tuomas
syntymäaika: 20.5.1995
siviilisääty: sinq
horoskooppi: oisko härkä
sisarukset: en muist nimee
suhde häneen: kaveri

YLEISTÄ:
Kuinka kauan olet tuntenut hänet? - oisko jotn vähä päälle vuos
Onko hänellä lemmikkejä? - helvetisti koneita
Kuinka tutustuitte? - koulussa
Hänen musiikkimakunsa? - metallica yeah \,,/ JA TOTTA KAI MUUKIN HEVI
Harrastukset? - töiden tekeminen ja kiaransoitto
Mitä teette yhdessä? - koulus pyöritään ja käydää cittaris :D
Hänen intohimonsa? - isot metsäkoneet (ai harvester of sorrow)
Miksi teet tämän gallupin juuri hänestä? - emt, tarpeeks pervo ja muutenkii hyvä tyyppi
Jos hän on varattu, tunnetko hänen seurustelukumppaninsa? - kovastihan tuo yrittää saada naisii
Onko hän romantikko? - todella
Onko hän nymfomaani? - ja suomeks kiits
Millainen mies/nainen iskee häneen? - isot rinnat ja hyvän näköne
Millaiset olisivat hänen unelma treffinsä? - varmaa sellai et kumpikii tulee paikalle, tuppe kysyy et: "tuuksä panolle?"

ULKONÄKÖ
Onko hän kaunis/komea? - kato kuvat: nick on tupezi
....tai ruma kuin apina? - no ei ny sentää
Pukeutuuko hän paljastavasti? - ei
Eli hänellä on isot tissit/timmi kroppa? - kroppa ain valmiina rannalle
Käyttääkö hän merkkituotteita? - ei pahemmin
Meikkaako? - totta kai
Hyvä perse ? - paras
Panisitko? - ihan heti

HENK.KOHT.
Puhuuko hän sinulle salaisuuksiaan? - kyl se joskus ain joskus, vissii
Avautuuko hän sinulle ongelmistaan, joita ei välttämättä kerro muille? - riippu, vissi joskus mun tietääksee, mun puolest ihan vapaast kyl mä sen salas osaan piää xD
Oletko nähnyt hänen itkevän? - en..
Onko hän muuten valittavaa sorttia? - riippu onks sil angs
Arvosteleeko hän muita? - koko aja tulee et vitu homo
Pidätkö hänestä edes? - EN TODELLAKAAN IHAN HOMO SAATANA
Mainitse puoli hänessä joka sinua ärsyttää? - joskus on on hakkaa ain
Mainitse joku erityisen hyvä puoli hänessä? - luonne ja jutun aiheet
Mainitse piirre, josta toivot ettei se periydy häneltä häneltä
lapsilleen? - jäätävä pervous

LOPUKSI
Milloin näät hänet seuraavaksi? - huomen
Mitä teette silloin? - ollaa koulus
Missä hän on nyt? - koton dataas
Ajatteleeko hän sinua? - 24/7

When I think back on this life
I guess we were doing the best we could
And to look at us from the outside
I'm sure it seems somewhat romantic
but when you've tasted excess
Everything else tastes bland
Yeah, we had everything to lose
But we still lived like we were about to die
After all, we were the drug scouts of america

I've begun evaporating
Right before your eyes
I just keep regurgitating
My own demise

I miss today I miss the past
I miss my veins 'cause they've collapsed
A simple thought occurs to me

I'm face down on the tracks
The train is coming fast
And it's not derailing
It's not the first time
And this won't be the last
That my heart is failing

As the blood is rushing
to my head
And from my wrists
I'm in love with all the things I know I should resist

And all the times you said to me
Your falling down ones destiny
A simple thought occurs to me

I'm face down on the tracks
The train is coming fast
And you're right there waiting
It's not the first time
And this won't be the last
That my heart is failing

Was intoxicating
Taking it into our lungs
Laughing at ourselves
Where others would probably cry
And more importantly
I'm proud of this guy
Staring face to face with the demons
And not back down
Takes a constitution that most people just don't have
A life gets soiled with sex, drugs and rock and roll

I'm face down on the tracks
The train is coming fast
And it's not derailing
It's not the first time
And this won't be the last
That my heart is failing

I'm face down on the tracks
The train is coming fast
And you're right there waiting
It's not the first time
And this won't be the last
That my heart is failing

Oh no, how could this happen to
Such an amazing young boy
I had my whole life ahead of me--

Oh God, how could you have let this
Happen to such a lovely young child
I was their only son and I tried,
Tried, tried--

Come on,
Come on get out of the way
Get out of the way man
You're going to have to let go of his arm
You have to let go sir
We've got about two minutes here
We've got about two minutes and we're going to lose him

Yeah, you, you miserable father
The one who ignored me for half of my life
Now I, I can't even look at you
Why? Why? Why?

Don't abandon me now
I don't want to die!

You can lead him to the ambulance
But you cannot make him live
No, you cannot make me live!
You can lead him to the ambulance
Lead me home!
But you cannot make him live

Would, could I have done differently
You never said there was anything wrong
Now the drugs, they give me encouragement
Why? Why? Why?

Oh God, tell me I'll make it
I'll give you my blood if that's all you need
Just don't tell me that I'm gonna die,
Die, die!

Don't abandon me now
I don't want to die
Alone...

You can lead him to the ambulance
But you cannot make him live
No you cannot make me live!
You can lead him to the ambulance
Why can't we celebrate? Lead me home!
But you cannot make him live

When I first placed my hands on these diaries
Scraps of paper, there were notes and scribbles and all kinds of shit
A lot of feelings came bubbling up, but mostly this one--

How the hell am I still alive?
That's what I think every day.

But more on that later.
After all, this is just the intermission.

Don't give up, it takes a while
I have seen this look before
And it's alright
You're not alone
If you don't love this anymore
I hear that you've slipped again
I'm here 'cause i know you'll need a friend

And you know that accidents can happen
And it's okay,
We all fall off the wagon sometimes
It's not your whole life
It's only one day
You haven't thrown everything away.

Take some time and learn to breathe
And remember what it means
To feel alive
And to believe
Something more than what you see
I know there's a price for this
But some things in life you must resist

And you know that accidents can happen
And it's okay,
We all fall off the wagon sometimes
It's not your whole life
It's only one day
You haven't thrown everything away.

I hear that you've slipped again
I'm here 'cause i know you'll need a friend

And you know that accidents can happen
And it's okay,
We all fall off the wagon sometimes
It's not your whole life
It's only one day
You haven't thrown everything away.

You know that accidents can happen
And it's okay,
We all fall off the wagon sometimes
It's not your whole life
It's only one day
You haven't thrown everything away.

So don't give up
It takes a while.

Where ya gonna be tomorrow?
How ya gonna face the sorrow?
Where ya gonna be when you die?
'Cause nothing's gonna last forever
And things they change like the weather
They're gone in the blink of an eye

Just look at yourself, can you see where you are?
Look at yourself, now you can't hide the scars
Just look at yourself 'cause there's nowhere to go
And you know

Tomorrow
You're gonna have to live with the things you say
Tomorrow
You'll have to cross bridges that you burned today
Tomorrow...
And everything you do, it's coming back for you
You'll never outrun what waits for you
Tomorrow.

And are you terrified by sadness
And have you given into madness
You're running out of places to hide
'Cause everybody's got a reason
To justify how they're feelin'
Maybe you should open your eyes

Just look at yourself, do you like what you see?
Look at yourself, is this how it should be?
Just look at yourself, 'cause there's nowhere to go
And you'll know

Tomorrow
You're gonna have to live with the things you say
Tomorrow
You'll have to cross bridges that you burned today
Tomorrow...
And everything you do, it's coming back for you
You'll never outrun what waits for you
Tomorrow.

Are you waiting for the reason to change?
Are you waiting for the end, has it came?
Nothing's gonna stand in your way...

Just look at yourself, do you like what you see?
Look at yourself, is this how it should be?

Tomorrow
You're gonna have to live with the things you say
Tomorrow
You'll have to cross bridges that you burned today
Tomorrow...
And everything you do, it's coming back for you
You'll never outrun what waits for you
Tomorrow.

She lights a candle, but she doesn't know why.
She wants to save me, but i'm barely alive.
My soul is thirsty. I just wanna get high.
Make her go away.

Now i'm hitting the wall and she begs me to quit,
And she drags me to church but i'm scared to commit,
And i'm loosing my mind 'cause she hides all my shit.
She wont go away.

And all I ask of her is
Pray for me,
'Cause I don't want to
Pray for me,
If you love me.
Cross your heart and hope that I wont die before the best day of my life.
Just pray for me tonight.

I dragged myself out of the bed that she made,
And I escape her in a black motercade
She's pushing bibles and a clear bill of health.
I can't make her go away.

Now i'm hitting the wall and she begs me to quit,
And she drags me to church but i'm scared to commit,
And i'm loosing my mind 'cause she hides all my shit.
She wont go away.

And all I ask of her is
Pray for me,
'Cause I don't want to
Pray for me,
If you love me.
Cross your heart and hope that I don't die before the best day of my life.
Just pray for me tonight.

Now i'm hitting the wall and she begs me to quit,
And she drags me to church but i'm scared to commit,
And i'm loosing my mind 'cause she hides all my shit.
And all I ask of her is
Pray for me,
I don't want to
Pray for me,
If you love me.
Cross your heart and hope that I don't die before the best day of my life.
(Pray for me tonight)
Pray for me
(Pray for me tonight)
Pray for me
(Pray for me tonight)
Pray for me
(Pray for me tonight)
Pray for me
(Pray for me to- )

You canÂ’t quit until you try
You canÂ’t live until you die
You canÂ’t learn to tell the truth
Until you learn to lie

You canÂ’t breathe until you choke
You gotta laugh when youÂ’re the joke
ThereÂ’s nothing like a funeral to make you feel alive

Just open your eyes
Just open your eyes
And see that life is beautiful.
Will you swear on your life,
That no one will cry at my funeral?

I know some things that you donÂ’t
IÂ’ve done things that you wonÂ’t
ThereÂ’s nothing like a trail of blood
to find your way back home

I was waiting for my hearse
What came next was so much worse
It took a funeral to make me feel alive

Just open your eyes
Just open your eyes
And see that life is beautiful.
Will you swear on your life,
That no one will cry at my funeral?

Just open your eyes
Just open your eyes
And see that life is beautiful.
Will you swear on your life,
That no one will cry at my funeral?

Just open your eyes
Just open your eyes
And see that life is beautiful.
Will you swear on your life,
That no one will cry at my funeral?

Just open your eyes
Just open your eyes
And see that life is beautiful.
Will you swear on your life,
That no one will cry at my funeral?

I don't want to die out here in the valley
Waiting for my luck to change
And I just want my dad to know
That I finally made it...

Everybody gets high
Everybody gets low
Everybody gets bruised
Everybody gets sold

I don't want to die out here in the valley
You don't have to lie,
I know that's what I'll do
I don't want my mom to know
That I never loved my life
And I sold my soul

Everybody gets high
Everybody gets low
Everybody gets bruised
Everybody gets sold
Everybody gets dark
Everybody unfolds
Everybody gets high
Everybody gets so low

And everyone's eyes are blue
And everyone's mouth is dry
And nobody wants to die
In Van Nuys
Van Nuys

Everybody gets high
Everybody gets low
Everybody gets bruised
Everybody gets sold
Everybody gets dark
Everybody unfolds
Everybody gets high
Everybody gets so low

Well you don't know how to get back to your crawlspace
Underneath the dirt and the rust and the waste
But the sun sets fast these days.

Everyone's eyes are blue
And everyone's mouth is dry
And nobody wants to die
In Van Nuys
Van Nuys

Everyone's eyes are blue
And everyone's mouth is dry
And nobody wants to die
In Van Nuys
Van--

Everyone's eyes are blue
And everyone's mouth is dry
And nobody wants to die
In Van Nuys, oh

Everyone's eyes are blue
And everyone's mouth is dry
And nobody wants to die
In Van Nuys
Van Nuys

December 25th, 1986 - Van Nuys.

Merry Christmas.

That's what people say at Christmas, right?
Except normally they have someone to say it to.
They have friends and family,
And they haven't been crouched naked under a Christmas tree
with a needle in their arm like an insane person in a mansion in Van Nuys.
They're not out of their minds, they're not writing in a diary,
And they're definitely not watching their holiday spirit coagulate in a spoon.
I didn't speak to a single person today.
I figured why should I ruin their fucking Christmas.

I've started a new diary and this time I have a few new reasons.
One, I have no friends left.
Two, so I can read back and remember what I did the day before.
And three, so if I die, at least I leave a nice little suicide note of my life.

It's just me and you, diary. Welcome to my fucked up life.


Nobody would believe the shit that happens in my head, it's haunted.
Now that I've come down from the drugs
it seems like a sick play that I saw in a theater somewhere.
Thirty minutes ago, I could've killed someone.
Or better yet, myself.