Missing you terribly isn't the worst thing about this.
Nor is the feeling of being hurt, betrayed, used and thrown away.
Not knowing if you even remember what we had is.
i'm lost in this senseless cruel world and i don't know if it even makes a difference which path i choose anymore cause i know you're nowhere near. but knowing that i still wake up every night screaming your name as if it was the only thing to keep me alive, to keep us alive.
had i admitted that we're dead, everything would be better.