IRC-Galleria

nyt mulla on 1300€ satula, muttei hevosta. Sitä odotellessa.

Here's the day you hoped would never come
Don't feed me violins
just run with me through roads of speeding cars.
The papercuts the cheating lovers
The coffee's never strong enough
i know you think it's more than just bad luck

There there baby
it's just text book stuff
it's in the ABC of growing up
Now now darling
oh don't lose your head
cause none of us were angels
and you know I love you yeah

Sleeping pills know sleeping dogs lie
never far enough away
Glistening in the cold sweat of guilt
I've watched you slowly winding down for years
You can't keep on like this...
now's a bad a time as any

There there baby
it's just text book stuff
it's in the ABC of growing up
Now now darling
oh don't kill yourself
cause none of us were angels
and you know I love you yeah

it's ok by me..

it's ok by me..

it's ok by me..it was a long time ago


it's ok by me..

it's ok by me..

it's ok by me..it was a long time ago

There there baby
it's just text book stuff
it's in the ABC of growing up
Now now darling
oh don't lose your head
cause none of us were angels
and you know I love you yeah

There there baby
it's just text book stuff
it's in the ABC of growing up
Now now darling
oh don't kill yourself
cause none of us were angels
and you know I love you yeah

Enää yksi kokonainen päivä!

oikeesti sen on paljon tummepi ja isompi ja kipeempi, kiitti vaan weeti, samalainen on myös kyljessä, reidessä ja sääressä. ja nenä vuotaa vieläkin verta.

Ää oon niin proo, etää lensin oikein tyylikkäästi tänään weeti murmelin selästä. voikun sen oisi sannut videolle sillä olisi tehnyt vielä rahaa. Oisin voinyt myydä sen johonkin ratsastajan ABC_älä tee näin opetus videoon.

I want your heart-shaped
lips, lips,
Cooler hula hips,
I want to feel my bones on
your
bones, yeah,
I wear my heartache at my
sleeve,
I love myself too much to
see,
It haunts my dreams,
It haunts my every dream,

Every boy wants a body to
die for and,
Every girl who's thin is
his rival,
I wish I had a body to die
for,
I'm gonna shed me some
skin,
Get me real, real slim,
I want to feel my bones on
your
bones, baby,
I am a teenage drama
queen,
I throw my guts up for
self-esteem,
It haunts my dreams,
It haunts my every dream.

where are we?
what the hell is going on?
the dust has only just begun to form
crop circles in the carpet
sinking feeling

spin me round again
and rub my eyes,
this can't be happening
when busy streets a mess with people
would stop to hold their heads - heavy

hide and seek
trains and sewing machines
all those years
they were here first

oily marks appear on walls
where pleasure moments hung before the takeover,
the sweeping insensitivity of this still life

hide and seek
trains and sewing machines (oh, you won't catch me around here)
blood and tears (hearts)
they were here first

Mmmm whacha say,
Mmmm that you only meant well?
well of course you did
Mmmm whacha say,
Mmmm that its all for the best?
Because it is
Mmmm whacha say?
Mmmm that it's just what we need
you decided this
whacha say?
Mmmm what did she say?

ransom notes keep falling out your mouth
mid-sweet talk, newspaper word cut outs
speak no feeling no i don't believe you
you don't care a bit,
you don't care a bit

(hide and seek)
ransom notes keep falling out your mouth
mid-sweet talk, newspaper word cut outs

(hide and seek)
speak no feeling no i don't believe you
you don't care a bit,
you don't care a (you don't care a) bit

(hide and seek)
oh no, you don't care a bit
oh no, you don't care a bit

(hide and seek)
oh no, you don't care a bit
you don't care a bit
you don't care a bit

Oikeasti suurin osa masennuksesta on vain opittua avuttomuutta. Mutta toki minunkin tekisi mieli päivittäin käypä makaamaan kylpyhuoneemme lattialle. Vain kylpyhuoneen lattia kelpaa koska se on tarpeeksi kylmä ja kurja. Voisin vain itkeä huutaa ja kuunnella Marilyn Mansonia. Lisätäkseni jännitystä voisin viillellä nilkkoja , koska ranteiden aukivetäminen on niin.. Mutta kerran muuan psykologi suljetulla osastolla kertoi minulle että ei tua ole masennusta, se on vain opittua avuttomuutta. Koska en tiedä mitä tehdä, koen etten hallitse tilannetta tunnen itseni avuttomaksi joka saa minut tuntemaan oloni kurjaksi. Samalla tavalla kuin masentuessani (sitaateissa) tunnen opittua avuttomuutta katsoessani O.C:tä katsoessani kymmenettä tuntia putkeen. Yleensä havahdun siihen kun Calebin hautajaiset saavat minut itkemään kuin vesiputouksen, Siinä vaiheessa kun Johnyn hautajaiset vietetään rannalla en enää näe mitään olen jo niin suunniltani. Kun taas vaihtoehtoisesti kun kohtaukset Marissasta ja (HUOM!) Volchok yhteis elosta alkavat. Saa se minut hyppimään ja hihkumaan riemusta. Ja kyllä minulla on elämä ja kyllä minulla on pahaolla ja kyllä minä haluaisin kuolla ja kyllä minä haluan elää ja kyllä minä olen onnellinen ja kyllä minulla on edelleen elämä, en vain ole ihan varma haluanko juuri tämän elämän saisinkohan vaihtaa sen..

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