I'm addicted to being hurt
It may seem bezerk
But none of these stress relievers work
Caught the pill
At the pill
Trying to get my head straight
Trying to over power the pain until the next day
But it aint happening
I'm an addict that's half asleep
While the other half of me is trapped in a series of bad dreams
My current position was trippin on trees of acid casts,
Until my eyes collapsed in suicide was an after math
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Falling down erasing memories you gave to me
I'm still alive and nothing you can say can make me breathe
So please take away the pain that hurts me
I don't wanna be alone and thirsty
So many drugs to push the pain I have intrapped in me
Cause I don't wanna live my life inside this fantasy
So please take away the pain that fills me
I don't wanna be the one that kills me
I can't take this pain cause I'm dying
I can't close my eyes cause I'm crying
Causes skills, taken away my brain, side effect's causes pain I think I'm going Insane ( INSANE )
I can't take this pain cause I'm dying
I can't close my eyes cause I'm crying
Causes skills, taken away my brain, side effect's causes pain I think I'm going Insane ( INSANE )
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I guess I'm Insane indeed
Cause no matter what the fuck I do, you never seem happy
Adapting,
To stronger drugs,
Larger quantities
Killing my self constantly
My eyes start to bleed
The feeling of being alive just,
Isn't enough
Serenches I stuff with heroine,
I'm feeling the rush
Inside of my vains, and my brain's fried from filling too much
With drugs, I'm willing to crush my chances of being in love
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Maybe because you made me that way
Turn me into a monster
I would of never became
Creating thoughts of dying
Eventually severed my brain
Irretated my vains
Intoxicated my system
It went on for days
I had cravings of wisdom
I wanted your fuckin opinion
So I'm making you listen
Listen to all the pain I've been feeling recently
Killed myself
And only now do you realize that you miss me
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