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Your love is my shield,
your trust is my steed,
your spirit is my blade,
your faith is the wind behind my back,
your lips are the banner i carry on this bloody field,
your breath is my spirit,
touch of your skin is my honor,
seeing you again is my bravery..

but if i fail on my task to never betray, never stop protecting you, if i failÂ… . then shall it be that

Your fear is my tremble,
your distrust is the blade of my enemies,
your hate is the foe holding the sword,
your pain is the battle i lost,
your sorrow is the wound fatal to me,
me without you is the abyss that awaits me after..

Look into the dark eyes of pain and you can see your eyes,
Search through the dark faces and you can see your lies,
Feel the cold of the night on your neck and you know your all alone,
Touch the ground as you slowly fall,
Touch the face of those fallen before you,
Dirt hits your face just like those who walk on you,
Blood covers your hands like those you've betrayed,
See them smile as they lower your grave,
Smile from where you are because your grave is lowered,
From hell watch them lower your grave.

I stare at my face in the mirror
Yet I cannot see the lies
Or the pain within my heart
Blinded by memories of the past,
I gaze into the void of nothingness
Hidden within these deep blue eyes of mine
Staring back at me from its reflection

My hatred is gone
All that's left is emptiness and sorrow
Now flowing through my veins, poisoning my mind
Teardrops of ice are blurring my reflection
Drowning it in silent grief

Lost behind the lies, never to return
Can't you hear my cries?
My soul was left to burn
I'm falling through the mirror
To a world beyond

I open up my window
Welcoming the cold, moonlit night
I reach for the pale reflection of the sun
It's taking me forth on a journey
A journey to the world of twilight

Nightfall, take my hand
Guide me away to the stars
I fall into oblivion
Frozen tears are in my eyes
As I now close them to dream away
Slowly drifting forth into the shadows

A graveyard of souls
Remembering life as if epitaphs
Joy, sorrow, come together like one
And the light and the darkness
Meet in that dim place
To collect the meaning
To find the knowledge
Secrets of the universe
Revealed through whispers to the Spirit
And in tears and the soul's agony
No will to face the world

In darkness my soul resides,
Homing for the path of light,
Admiring from afar,
A shine that might not truly possess.

Wondering adrift,
Through the blood tainted roads of existence,
With only my pressence to tend the wounds,
Wounds triggered by my lonesome self.

On my knees I've seen crimson,
spill from my life giver's arm,
In cries of agony and pain,
Begging for her temple to keep.
Drops of life pounding,
Over the vile soil.

I have seen demons in my image,
I have heard them using my voice,
Until I no longer yearn living,
Until my soul have given up.

All these roads I've walked through,
So short, yet seem so long,
Breathtaking and with spines,
scratching my existence.

Most of these I have forgotten,
So I never slither again,
Into the thorn-filled aisles of my torrid past.

Still, these memories so hunt me,
Feeding on my spirit,
Corroding my thoughs.

Thus the lust for crimson has arisen,
To purge all sanity left in me,
To make me less of what I am,
And more of what I hate.

Yet, I glimpse the light I'm hunting,
Distanced from the stranger I've become.
I stand alone, and wait in vigil
In vigil as it advances,
With my soul in hand she prances.

To deliver it to me,
To turn me into what I used to be,
To satisfy my hunger.
And yet making it grow stronger.

Can you tell me what remains
when one is tired of life
and tired of living –
what hope is left when
all love brings is pain?

What good comes from the
mind that feels no remorse
from a thousand injuries past –
how one can love with fragments
of a broken heart?

Tears of misery pour down
from saddened lakes of pain,
and fall like shards of glass upon my soul –
piercing through the flesh of time
and come to rest in loneliness.

Can you tell me
when the rain will end
and the sun shine bright once more –
when sleep will come
and memories of grief
will no longer be the bearer
of the insomnia of life?

Can you tell me
when suffering ceases
to be my only friend –
where the green grass grows
and where rivers of joy
flow silently into the horizon
and darkness shall be no more?

I have lost my heart,
so I can´t love you anymore.
I don´t know what to do,
then I decided to leave you.

But then I lost my soul.
I roam in somewhere dark,
looking for something important,
my heart or my soul.

As I was roaming I found you
and in that way a part of me.
I looked in your eyes and realized
that I need you more than anything.

I gave too much power
I gave you my heart
now fear inside me
is tearing me apart

I love and fear at the same time
you mess my head, fine
I canÂ’t be happy until youÂ’re mine
but I must escape before I die

Which should listen heart or mind
I donÂ’t know which is right
IÂ’m blind, I canÂ’t see
I was wrong, you arenÂ’t best to me

DonÂ’t know what to think, you say
donÂ’t know how to behave
I donÂ’t know how to stand the pain
thank god dreams donÂ’t come on the day

Do you know with you I canÂ’t live
so why are you so good to pretend
and why made me to believe
that last time wasnÂ’t the end

You have taught me something about yourself
and now I know more about myself
I donÂ’t let anyone see whatÂ’s inside me
I wont trust anyone, youÂ’ll see


Areatis

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Fuck, no bucks to get some drugs. Black Dove, i owe. I need money to get more honey.

Gangs, Bangs, Dings and Dangs. Trips 'n Drops
Candy? Yeah, i need you Mandy. (who's Mandy?)

Run!

What do you want? Honey? You got my money? (Colours, many colours. Insanity. No head, no tail)

Gangs, Bangs, Dings and Dangs. Trips 'n Drops
Candy? Yeah, i'am so dandy.

Yes!

Yes i got your bucks, and now i want my drugs! Dope! Dope!

Gangs, Bangs, Dings and Dangs. Trips 'n Drops
Candy? Yeah, my Mandy.

Mandy! Mandy! PleaseÂ… Come back to my dreams! I need you! Or am i too dandy?

The tribute is not for man
But for the lost and wandering innocence
She lies under the blue moon
Wounded and crying but hoping
That someone would clear her defiled name
Carry her to the sunlight and make her smile
To this dying world

I fear, all gone will rejoin within me again
Greed has left me no key to love, to share
It made me weak for what I canÂ’t see
LifeÂ’s origin told to care and sow
Now they haunt on these serene waters
Oh, I donÂ’t know what to do anymore

Pacifism was only a fleeting memory
Of what we were made to caress
Time didnÂ’t make us kill the hoping girl
But the unknown might mastering us
Still the ones with daring are left to see
What there is to do
Before the moon takes her home

I fear, all gone will rejoin within me again
Greed has left me no key to love, to share
It made me weak for what I canÂ’t see
LifeÂ’s origin told to care and sow
Now they haunt in these serene waters
Oh, I donÂ’t know what to do anymore

In this land we born and we die
But see my hope and see the pain
To save whatÂ’s left to be saved