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Tuuli sotkee hiukseni
ja kyyneliin saa silmäni
kyynelten mukana pois menee hymysi
tuo kaikkein rakkain muisto

En voi tehdä mitään
vaikka silmät sulkisin
hymysi haalistuu
se on enää pelkkä haava sielussani

Joka kerta kun muistan
joka kerta kun ajattelen
joka hetki, aina ja kaikkialla
lyöt veitsen sydämeeni, syvempään

Aina kun se haava paranee
tulee uusi
ja uusi

Annoin sydämeni pois
toisen käsiin
hän suojelee sitä
vaikka henki menisi
kunnes kaadun taas

Sano HEP, jos olen kaverilistallasi.
Tämä mittaa ihmisten rehellisyyttä.
Ja ujoutta.
Muistakaa kävijälista.
Sanottuasi HEP, kopioi tämä omaan päiväkirjaan ja katso kuinka moni uskaltaa olla SINULLE rehellinen

Kunnes on päivä,
jona kuolen
Annoin lusikkani sinulle
Kyllästyit sitä kantamaan

Elämäni on liian raskas minulle
En jaksa sitä enää jatkaa
Olen liian heikko ja rikottu
Eikö voitaisi ottaa askel toiseen suuntaan?

Ja niin näin sen
Elämäni viimeisen päivän
Illalla aurinko laskee
Yön pimeys jää ikuisesti ylleni

Suljen silmäni
Käyn arkkuun makaamaan
On kuoppa valmiina
Viimeinen matka aina alaspäin

Hautajaisissa
Ruumisarkussa
Lattialla

Aina samoilla kasvoilla
voit nähdä samat ilmeet
Tai ilman ilmeitä
Eihän niillä edes
ole väliä

Viini pulloista
valuu tyhjiin suihin
Ei löydy enää sanoja
On kai turha puhua

Huudan tyhjyyttä
turhuuden täyttämään päähäni
Elävänä tai kuolleena
Ilman tarkoitusta

Ei halua kuolla
Ei syytä elää
Ei toivoa selvitä
Ei mitään järkeä
Jäädään tähän juopumaan


Ja kun aamu vihdoin koittaa
Todellisuus selviää
Ei edes kaipauksesi täyttämä viini
voi sinua pelastaa

vastaa rehellisesti, mitä tekisit jos :

1. sanoisin että rakastan sinua?
2. jäisin auton alle?
3. olisin tekemässä itsemurhaa?
4. sanoisin etten tykkää sinusta enää enkä halua olla missään tekemisissä kanssasi?
5. katoaisin tosta vain eikä kukaan tietäisi missä olen tai minne menin?

kiuru:"millon sä perustat perheen?"
mä:"no.. sitku..."
"ai sitku unelmien prinssi ratsastaa pihaa valkeella ratsulla?"
"just tota mä hain!"

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kiuru:"mikä sust tulee isona?"
mä:"laiska"
"ai mitenni tulee"
"no tulee viel laiskempi"

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kiuru:"te tehdä nyt ajatuskartta"
mä:"me ei tehdä nyt ajatuskartta"
kiuru:"miksi te ei tehdä ajatuskartta?"
mara:"me ei pitää ajatuskartta"

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Homma menee näin: :>
Kysy minulta ainakin 3 kysymystä
ja minun pitää vastata niihin jokaiseen... siis aivan jokaiseen..
Laita sitten tämä omaan päiväkirjaasi, jos siis haluat tietää mitä muut haluavat sinulta kysyä...

Hakkaan päätäni seinään
Ei kai se koskaan halkea
Vain pieniä naarmuja seinässä,
otsalohkossa

Istu, istu!
Syö ja
lyö!

Hakkaa päätä seinään
kunnes se halkeaa
Psyyke hajoaa
Perspektiivi katoaa

Älä itke,
turhaa se on

Ei hajonnut seinä enää vangitse
Ei se tyhjästä kohoa,
enää sinua ei se vangitse

Olet vapaa
Vapaa katoamaan
Vapaa kuolemaan
Katoamaan kuolemaan, kuoleman kadottamaan

Pako pakon sanelema
Vapaus elämän vangitsee
Levottoman sielusi se taas kahlitsee
Myöhäistä on jo paeta

Juosta haudassa
Syödä matoja

Ei
Ei
Ei
Ei

Sano se
Toista sanani
Älä enää valheillasi totta puhu
Silmän ruokaa korvillesi syötä

Totuutta kieroa katso silmiin
Ei

Viimeinen askel on aina se kaikkein vaikein
Eteenpäin
Taaksepäin

Harha-askel ajaa ojaan
Tiput tieltä vankilaasi,
viimeiseen matkaasi,
rakkaaseen kotiisi

Lattia on kova ja sinäkin niin kaunis
Muurahaiset varpaanväleissä miettivät tulevaa
Miksei vain menevää, kun sekin on turta
Herranpieksut, se on niin mahdotonta kun ei pysy sohvalla
En tahdo syödä karkkia, koska hampaani vuotaa verta
Pörrötän hiuksiasi terävällä veitsellä
Onko se niin väärin maistella piimää kulholla
Teräsvilla kuristaa kieltäni sanomaan sanat
En tahtoisi tehdä suurta rikosta niin ontuvaa
Sängyn alla turri, jonkun alushousut kai
En siitä välitä, vaikka lentäisin ilman siipiä <--
Riisuisitko edessäni, jos hetki olisi väärä
On liikaa rahaa, en voi sitä ymmärtää
Sietää en voi totuutta, joka hakkaa tyynyllä
Makuupussista löytyy peikko, hampaistani karannut raukka
Tahdon katsoa kun hiiri pissaa
Aurinko nousee lännestä, jos on tarpeeksi kännissä
Mitä lie taskussakin ollut, kun sitä ei enää ole
Koulu imee verta, ahtaa voimaa kummajaisiin
Ei voi vain kaiket yöt kulkea pimeässä luolassa
Voi vain odottaa, että kukka kasvaa
On turha katsoa pilviä, jotka eivät tykkää sateesta
En halua tehdä sitä, vaikka teenkin jo niin <--