IRC-Galleria

kaikil ihmisil on veitset kädes. mitä lähemmäks joku pääsee sitä helpommin se veitsi osuu ja sitä enemmän myös sattuu. ykski väärä askel ja se veitsi voi osuu. jotku löis omal veitsellää mieluummin itteää ku sitä ystäväänsä mut oman veitsen iskui ei nää ellei nää sitä haavaa mikä tulee. niit veitsii ei muutenkaa koskaa nää, ne vaa tuntee. omaa veistää ei vois siirtää mihinkää, sen paikka on määrätty. se ystävä aina kävelee, reitti on tarkasti määrätty. astuu sivuu ja aina jonku veitsi osuu. pitää osaa ohjaa ystäväänsä oikein ettei se astu sivuu. se on sama ku sokkona kävelis kuolemanlangal.

Tuuli sotkee hiukseni
ja kyyneliin saa silmäni
kyynelten mukana pois menee hymysi
tuo kaikkein rakkain muisto

En voi tehdä mitään
vaikka silmät sulkisin
hymysi haalistuu
se on enää pelkkä haava sielussani

Joka kerta kun muistan
joka kerta kun ajattelen
joka hetki, aina ja kaikkialla
lyöt veitsen sydämeeni, syvempään

Aina kun se haava paranee
tulee uusi
ja uusi

Annoin sydämeni pois
toisen käsiin
hän suojelee sitä
vaikka henki menisi
kunnes kaadun taas

Sano HEP, jos olen kaverilistallasi.
Tämä mittaa ihmisten rehellisyyttä.
Ja ujoutta.
Muistakaa kävijälista.
Sanottuasi HEP, kopioi tämä omaan päiväkirjaan ja katso kuinka moni uskaltaa olla SINULLE rehellinen

Kunnes on päivä,
jona kuolen
Annoin lusikkani sinulle
Kyllästyit sitä kantamaan

Elämäni on liian raskas minulle
En jaksa sitä enää jatkaa
Olen liian heikko ja rikottu
Eikö voitaisi ottaa askel toiseen suuntaan?

Ja niin näin sen
Elämäni viimeisen päivän
Illalla aurinko laskee
Yön pimeys jää ikuisesti ylleni

Suljen silmäni
Käyn arkkuun makaamaan
On kuoppa valmiina
Viimeinen matka aina alaspäin

Hautajaisissa
Ruumisarkussa
Lattialla

Aina samoilla kasvoilla
voit nähdä samat ilmeet
Tai ilman ilmeitä
Eihän niillä edes
ole väliä

Viini pulloista
valuu tyhjiin suihin
Ei löydy enää sanoja
On kai turha puhua

Huudan tyhjyyttä
turhuuden täyttämään päähäni
Elävänä tai kuolleena
Ilman tarkoitusta

Ei halua kuolla
Ei syytä elää
Ei toivoa selvitä
Ei mitään järkeä
Jäädään tähän juopumaan


Ja kun aamu vihdoin koittaa
Todellisuus selviää
Ei edes kaipauksesi täyttämä viini
voi sinua pelastaa

vastaa rehellisesti, mitä tekisit jos :

1. sanoisin että rakastan sinua?
2. jäisin auton alle?
3. olisin tekemässä itsemurhaa?
4. sanoisin etten tykkää sinusta enää enkä halua olla missään tekemisissä kanssasi?
5. katoaisin tosta vain eikä kukaan tietäisi missä olen tai minne menin?

kiuru:"millon sä perustat perheen?"
mä:"no.. sitku..."
"ai sitku unelmien prinssi ratsastaa pihaa valkeella ratsulla?"
"just tota mä hain!"

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kiuru:"mikä sust tulee isona?"
mä:"laiska"
"ai mitenni tulee"
"no tulee viel laiskempi"

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kiuru:"te tehdä nyt ajatuskartta"
mä:"me ei tehdä nyt ajatuskartta"
kiuru:"miksi te ei tehdä ajatuskartta?"
mara:"me ei pitää ajatuskartta"

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``````````````````````````````````lisäämällä tämä sinun päiväkirjaan :D``````````````

Homma menee näin: :>
Kysy minulta ainakin 3 kysymystä
ja minun pitää vastata niihin jokaiseen... siis aivan jokaiseen..
Laita sitten tämä omaan päiväkirjaasi, jos siis haluat tietää mitä muut haluavat sinulta kysyä...

Hakkaan päätäni seinään
Ei kai se koskaan halkea
Vain pieniä naarmuja seinässä,
otsalohkossa

Istu, istu!
Syö ja
lyö!

Hakkaa päätä seinään
kunnes se halkeaa
Psyyke hajoaa
Perspektiivi katoaa

Älä itke,
turhaa se on

Ei hajonnut seinä enää vangitse
Ei se tyhjästä kohoa,
enää sinua ei se vangitse

Olet vapaa
Vapaa katoamaan
Vapaa kuolemaan
Katoamaan kuolemaan, kuoleman kadottamaan

Pako pakon sanelema
Vapaus elämän vangitsee
Levottoman sielusi se taas kahlitsee
Myöhäistä on jo paeta

Juosta haudassa
Syödä matoja

Ei
Ei
Ei
Ei

Sano se
Toista sanani
Älä enää valheillasi totta puhu
Silmän ruokaa korvillesi syötä

Totuutta kieroa katso silmiin
Ei

Viimeinen askel on aina se kaikkein vaikein
Eteenpäin
Taaksepäin

Harha-askel ajaa ojaan
Tiput tieltä vankilaasi,
viimeiseen matkaasi,
rakkaaseen kotiisi