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stress...stressstressstress....stress..stress-stress....stresssssssssssssss
i'm stressed out :D
i have so much shit runing through my brain i think i might exsplode one huge KABOOM!
too many choices too may dramas, too many things in my head, i dont know if i'm coming or going if i'm up or down. i dont know what i want any more.... i have too many self issues, i have too many issues with people, i have to many issues with countries and politics.
AHHHHHHH.
and the worst thing is.... i cant talk about it with any one, because.. its too hard for people to understand, it too emotional, its too.... gah i dont know, i want so badly to just scream what i'm thinking, but i keep my mouth shut. why i dont know, i'm a loser i guess who cant exspress her emotions at people. I keep everything thats negitive bottled up, unless something triggers a release, whihc is being drunk or just exsploding! which is why i dont drink much any more because everything just exsplodes!
i wish i wasnt so... emotionally handicaped! because if i'm not showing enough emotion or reaction, i'm showing to much i cant win! And when i do try to exspress myself i freeze up and avoid it in the end, the only real way i can comunicate my true feelings is by writting them, and not even writting them to people, just letters upon letters. i think its because writting is so much less personal... and i can think about what i say, and i dont have to worry about the others reaction...

i wish everything would just stop... or slow down, so i had time to think...
everything is moving too fast, every one is moving too fast.
i want time to stop.. if only for a day...
it would be nice

me and Asanti discover the truth!

Taryn says:
i told u i was a freak now XD
Taryn says:
i think i realise why i cant keep men... i am one... i am a man...
Scorpio Metal Horse {Movies} says:
sad you're a gay man in a sex-ay woman's body
Taryn says:
hahahah i know...
Taryn says:
its so weird
Scorpio Metal Horse {Movies} says:
so... if a guy would get it on with you, a gay man in a woman's body...
Scorpio Metal Horse {Movies} says:
would that make him Bisexual?
Taryn says:
dude....
Taryn says:
thats trippy... i shall have to think about that

ehh i have to make a huge desission soon, and its fucking hard.

i have decided when i move back to finland and move out on my own i want a dog, i want one of these dogs.
http://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Bull_terrier ((english))
http://fi.wikipedia.org/wiki/Bullterrieri ((soumi))

i want a minature one X3

hmmm i'm a little sad. we are getting a kitten wednesday. but its for tiia now, i'm not allowed to have my onw so... yeah. i have always wanted a cat, but i'm never allowed to have one...

i think i should go to sleep now XD

i hunted for ages looking for a good clip of this, but you know what not meant to be i guess.
she is actually.. kinda scary to look at there is something oddly.. almost alien looking i guess.
but i really love what she sings about, and i love the lyrics to this song so much. i know how it feels
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=Scm4oAYYbIg

i realise i do not have much privecy on this site now days
i know i have been a hard bitch.
i am sorry for the way i have gone about things, but i'm not sorry for what i have said, i just should have said it in a differnt way i guess.
i do mean what i say, but maybe not to the exstrem that it comes across as, but still, one is allowed to exspress their feelings.
i'm sick and tired of stupid petty childish acts... both my own and others.
so my solution to this is i'm just going to forget it, not forgive, but just let it go and live my life. no more mean bitch, but not nice either.

anime seminar was a great pay day for me X'D!!!!
money money money! in a rich bitch world!!!

hahahaha i had the best time last night. i have been hoping for some just plain good old fun and thanks to mira i got it. i had the best time ever in such a long time. it was so fucking funny XD
i think me and her will have to do it every week now XD
did u know, there are actually hot guys in oulu... they just hide really well :D

AHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHRG.
OHHH FUCK YOU!