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i heard this song on the radio today and was like... wow... thats so beautiful, and its kinda the music i like to chill too. dont get me wrong i love Rihanna and Savage graden and all... but this song is so summer, and i come from a country of summer so i feel so peaceful when i hear it.
its just so relaxing and all about loving and... ahh
i think i'm inlove X3
its all about going with the flow and being happy and inlove and ahh. i love it
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=EkHTsc9PU2A

i wanna drew like this guy! golden_free

hahahaha i got food. one kg of rice, one kg of pasta and two cans of tomatoes all for 3,60€ yes! i get to eat for a few more weeks!!!!
i know that sounds pathetic, but i go really... REALLY excited when i brought it, like i was buying dimonds or somehting XD
it was the money i got for cashing those bottles, and it went to good use!
now i have.. ahh what... 5€ left... yay.. NOT!
i wanna shop. i wanna i wanna i wanna, i dont wnat i NEED that scarf!!!!
even if i have to seel myself for it DX
gahh
hahaha last night i was waaaaay to wake.. so i sat down and watch all of tiia's videos until 5 in the morning. Kaneli is so sweet and evil. she sleeped on me the whole time and then when i decided ok i sleep now, she kept me awake.
Really there is something wrong with tiia's other cate Kalua.. he is always being sick every where.. last night in my room and when i found it i was nearly sick... i dont think its normal for a cat to be vomiting all the time, i hope he's ok.
i am DIEING to dance and party. i have been feeling.... pensive about life and so i wanna live it. i wanna start having fun!
i had a long hard talk with some friend of mine, both Australia and Finnish. and for some reason the same answer keeps coming up for me. I should stop dating... like not have long term meaningful relationships and just have a lotta flings, that way i can use them and get rid of them before they do something stupid. and really i think that suits me better now days... but hey i'm a girl i still got needs, so i guess thats why this works so well

Ok.
i leave Oulu on the 26th at 23:55
and i leave Finland on the 29th at 16:20

i'm... really misrable about leaving.
its kinda a suffercating feeling like i cant breath because i have so many fears so... yeah

man.... busy
HSM3 today
i have Jaana's 18th friday
minja's house warming friday
move to Maija's for the week end.
dude!

i'm not ovely keen on Miley cyrus... at all. she's a little.. slutish for a girl her age and all. and the video clip is... well not the clip but some of the faces she makes... are odd...
but... i really enjoy this song
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=Hr0Wv5DJhuk


also.. OMG this song talks to me baby XD i know some people who are this song soooo bad!!!
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=eLOd-8_JyxY

stress...stressstressstress....stress..stress-stress....stresssssssssssssss
i'm stressed out :D
i have so much shit runing through my brain i think i might exsplode one huge KABOOM!
too many choices too may dramas, too many things in my head, i dont know if i'm coming or going if i'm up or down. i dont know what i want any more.... i have too many self issues, i have too many issues with people, i have to many issues with countries and politics.
AHHHHHHH.
and the worst thing is.... i cant talk about it with any one, because.. its too hard for people to understand, it too emotional, its too.... gah i dont know, i want so badly to just scream what i'm thinking, but i keep my mouth shut. why i dont know, i'm a loser i guess who cant exspress her emotions at people. I keep everything thats negitive bottled up, unless something triggers a release, whihc is being drunk or just exsploding! which is why i dont drink much any more because everything just exsplodes!
i wish i wasnt so... emotionally handicaped! because if i'm not showing enough emotion or reaction, i'm showing to much i cant win! And when i do try to exspress myself i freeze up and avoid it in the end, the only real way i can comunicate my true feelings is by writting them, and not even writting them to people, just letters upon letters. i think its because writting is so much less personal... and i can think about what i say, and i dont have to worry about the others reaction...

i wish everything would just stop... or slow down, so i had time to think...
everything is moving too fast, every one is moving too fast.
i want time to stop.. if only for a day...
it would be nice

me and Asanti discover the truth!

Taryn says:
i told u i was a freak now XD
Taryn says:
i think i realise why i cant keep men... i am one... i am a man...
Scorpio Metal Horse {Movies} says:
sad you're a gay man in a sex-ay woman's body
Taryn says:
hahahah i know...
Taryn says:
its so weird
Scorpio Metal Horse {Movies} says:
so... if a guy would get it on with you, a gay man in a woman's body...
Scorpio Metal Horse {Movies} says:
would that make him Bisexual?
Taryn says:
dude....
Taryn says:
thats trippy... i shall have to think about that