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AHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH!!!!!
my computer crashed and then Shane took it upon him to REFORMAT it to fix it... so.... i have lost everything, every photo i took over the last 4 years... gone.. i have maybe a handful of old pics that were on a USB of mine left...
whats to say.. i'm alot annoyed... every picture...
my exchange... my travelling around europe... my second time in finland.... they are unreplaceable.. D''': i'm really upset about it
oh and i had another fight with that fuck face butcher... and now my stepsister is staying fucked up crap about me.. again
great.

guess what babes.
we have another ferret. she is younger then Coco and Milo, but looks like them in the same colours only darker i guess.
anyway.
this old couple just found her in their back yard, and told the local buter (not the one i work with) who told my aunt who told me.
so i went over and caught her and took her home and now she is running around the TV with Coc and Milo playing. there were a few fights between Milo and the new ferret, but they seem ok now, i guess it was just a "hey know ur place!" kind of thing
she's so cute.
if i keep her i will have to think of somehting to call her.. any idea?
if it helps... the other ferrets coco and milo their full names are Coco Channel and Venus De Milo which r both french and their nick names coco and milo r both chocolates here in australia.. what do u think?

OMg that rhys guy came back and would not leave me alone at the store i tried so mucht o make him leave but he would not!
and... i have pulled a muscel.... in my ASS! how i do not know, but it is fucking painful man XD i'm limping every where
i'm meant to go out to night i said i would i guess i should i dont really wanna, but meh.
and i have a party sunday... so meh
i'm so not in the party mood DX

OMG shut up your so annoying, thats what i think about every one right now!

i think i am doomed to have to do all the work for every one else for the rest of my life, is it too much to ask for people to look after them selves and maybe every now and then give me a hand instead of it always being the other way round?
Not only did i find my own job and make my way across the earth.. TWICE. i found a job for my friend and my brother, i feed every one, i'm organsing to go back to finland, i finished school with really high grades and i'm completely independant and spend more of my time helping others with their shitty issues then my own.
is it so mucht o ask for a little compssion or sympathy?
i mean really
"oh Taryn ur throwing ur life away. blah blah blah blah"
"u'll be ok your taryn you'll make it back"
"you wont last a whole year there before you come back, your so comming back"
"hahahaha really it happened twice wow, how ever did u manage to do that"
"your so ungreatful, u live in the best country in the world"
"ohhh taryn my world is falling apart poor me poor me, pity me, give me attention"
"you dont do enough, you dont give enough"

i swear to god if i hear anything like that one more time, i will kill them.
i'm sick and tired of having to put myself second to every one else, i'm only 19 turning 20. i shouldnt have to worry about that kind of crap, i should be partying, but no because i'm 2 busy being 50!

i would love to have one week... no.. one day where i am not a constant ball of nerves, stress and worry about everything where i can just sit back and enjoy something, LIKE A NORMAL PERSON!

but no, because now we have a resession and everything is going up in price... plane tickets included, food, LIVING! and now i'm short money every month just to help my family pays bills.
gahhh.. stress.
i really dont give a fuck any more. i dont care if any one even reads this, i just need to vent it all out because i cant do it here with any one cause they are all DICKS! and it always... ALWAYS turns into something about my inability to stop ruining others lives and my own, cause itsssss alllll myyyyy FAULT isnt it!
i feel like breaking things, and yelling at people, i am just itching at the thought of someone trying to fight with me because i would destroy them, mentally and even more phiscially. i havent gotten into a fist fight with some one since i was 17... and gah... god how i wish i could do it again some times!

my new fave singer with her song i like it loud! oh god i know exsactlly what she means in the song i like it loud man, u have one of those days every day.
http://www.officialcassiedavis.com/
i think i'm in love!

yah ok i 'went out' this last friday for Colleens 20th birthday... it kinda failed because i had woken up at 6am, worked for nine hours came home, helped her do her makeup, didnt have anything to eat and then went to this house party of her boyfriends and started drinking gin... there was like no one interesting there.... at best i would say they were annoying and psycho... Colleen's boyfriends mother... has the intelligance of a 8 year old. she asked me about the finnish language, saying taht it should be easy because all those 'european' languages r the same... when i tried to exsplain that finnish wasnt an anglo saxen language she looked at me like she was retarded. and when i tried to talk anything ... normal with any one they had no idea... they were all 17 year olds and 16 year olds, that doenst bother me, but they were acting like iddiots like OMG i'm drinking or OMG i'm smoking and im like.. OMG ur all fucked up.
and i was so tired... and hungry and now drunk that i got really nasty at colleens boyfriend.. apparently he was shit scared of me because he thought i might kill him. i was drunk, so i was angry and horny and even drunk i would touch anything that was in that house.. i laid on the couch for a second and fell asleep cause i was so fucking tired and bored and then i woke to hear them talking about me, saying that for a 20 year old i was really too serious and couldnt handle a drink like that could. come on, 9 hours of work and i had been up since 6 and gone to bed at like 3 in the morning... and i hadnt eaten and i was bored... of cause i was gonna doze off sooner or latter. and then colleen wouldnt LEAVE, and she was my ride home. it was like 6 in the morning and i was like fuck i wanna go home, and she would not leave because she was too busy fucking off with her man, we had been there since 7:30 the day before. so i walked home in the dark, it only took me an hour but i was as scared as all fuck because where we had been is known for rapes and bashings and stuff.. and there were LOTS of Black native Australians (aboriginals) and they were calling out at me and following me, i was like fuck fuck fuck shit fuck!
i came home and crashed. colllen was menat to come to my house latter and we were gonna have pizza and movies and chocolate and have a girls night but she was too tired and 'sore' to come so i made myself some pasta and just watched movies on the computer... ...
wow...
fun


also i have only just noticed how short a time i have to get money to get to finland and get my visa ready... like 4-5 months which is not that long, concidering last time i had 9 months to do it in.
i really need riitta to talk to me about this au pair thing because if that fails i have to run around liek a dick on speed trying to find another way to stay there D:

so like today at work.. about lunch time i'm sitting at the check out doing nothing. Mum comes up to me and shows me something and it feels like all my birthdays came at once.
A PACKAGE! FROM FINLAND!
i was so excited i nearly screamed in the store and was so.. so wanting to go to lunh but then i had to wait another 2 hours to get into it.
OMG THANK YOU!
for all the letters and everything!
it really made my day my heart was going boom boom boom all the time and i just SMILED all day.
THANK YOU:
MIRA
MINNA
TIIA
CAPI
you are so the best, be sure i will send things back to you babies!!!!
John makes a very convincing woman... and mira and tiia make hot men, i'd so bang mira if i knew there was no hotdog going on down there and tiia looked like .. ahhh... cream..
dont take this too literly people
Mert reminded me of this teenager i saw once. Colour blind and fashion retarded XP but still looked good in a weird twisted way.
OMG capi.. u were just the smex and u too Minna.
i will totally be sending a DVD back home for you all!
Me and my family watched it and they all reckon that u have really BIG accents... i didnt even notice.
also MINNA how in the world did u get some of those photos that was like a total blast from the past. Also tell Hannu thank you thank you about the book i will read it all so right now.. ohh.. i am so gonna start writting letters now.
this is the happyest i have been since coming back to Australia i asure u!


I LOVE YOU ALL SO FUCKING MUCH!!!!! SO MUCH IT HURTS BABY!

not the best Vid. but i am thrashing this song over in my room dancing like a retard XP
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=gLTCXZbCNFU
let it rock, by Kevin Rudolf Ft Lil Wayne.

RULES:
It's harder than it looks! Copy to your own note, erase my answers, enter yours, and tag twenty people. Use the first letter of your name to answer each of the following questions. They have to be real...nothing made up! If the person before you had the same first initial, you must use DIFFERENT answers. You CANNOT use any word twice and you can't use your name for the boy/girl name question.

1. What is your name : Taryn

2. A four Letter Word : Tart

3. A boy's Name : Thomas

4. A girl's Name : Tammie

5. An occupation : Teacher

6. A color : Teal

7. Something you'll wear : T-shirt

9. A food : Toast

10. Something found in the bathroom : toothpaste

11. A place : Tasmania

12. A reason for being late : Typhoon came down from the north and killed me.. but dont worry, i'm all better now

13. Something you'd shout : Tramp!

14. A movie title : Teenaged mutant ninja turtles

15. Something you drink : Tea

16. A musical group : Taking Back Sunday

17. An animal : Tiger

18. A street name : Tanner street

19. A type of car : Torana

20. The title of a song : thats not my name

1. You can ONLY answer Yes or No!
2. You are NOT ALLOWED to explain ANYTHING unless someone messages or comments you and Asks!

Now, here's what you're supposed to do... And please do not spoil the Fun. Copy and paste this into your notes , delete my answers and type in your answers. Then see what happens.

You are not allowed to explain anything unless asked..

Kissed any of your IRC friends? Yes

Been arrested? No

Kissed someone you didn't like? Yes

Slept in until 5 PM? yes

Fallen asleep at work/school? yes

Held a snake? Yes

Ran a red light? No

Been suspended from school? No

Totaled your car/motorbike in an accident? No

Been fired from a job? No

Sang karaoke? Yes

Done something you told yourself you wouldn't? Yes

Laughed until something you were drinking came out your nose? Yes

Caught a snowflake on your tongue? yes

Sang in the shower? Yes

Sat on a rooftop? Yes

Been pushed into a pool with all your clothes? yes

Broken a bone? yes

Shaved your head? No

Blacked out from drinking? yes

Played a prank on someone? yes

Felt like killing someone? Yes

Made your girlfriend/boyfriend cry? Yes

Had Mexican jumping beans for pets? No

Been in a band? no

Shot a gun? yes

Tripped on mushrooms? No

Donated Blood? no

Eaten crocodile meat? No

Eaten cheesecake? Yes

Still love someone you shouldn't? yes

Think about the future? Yes

Believe in love? Yes

Sleep on a certain side of the bed? Yes