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you know what you try to believe in people and then they do something; really STUPID, LIE to you or BETRAY you and make you totally disrespect them.
there are about 8 people that have proven that today for me.
i'm so angry right now... so completely PISSED OFF that i'm shaking with rage it hard for me to even type.
i have about 0 respect for any of the 8 people i am thinking about right now!

TARYN ATE A WHOLE JAR OF NUTELLA
bad taryn BAD!

-happy sigh-
mira is cumin in 15 days.
i miss her even though i know she'll be here soon. i CAN NOT hid my sheer joy of seeing her!
Oh- CONGRATS CAPI on getting into school, you'll be a lovely little house builder i'm so proud of u, see i knew you could do it, when i come home we will have to go and have celebraton drinks together!!!
all my fins make me so proud n_n

i should be sleeping right now... but i cant.
i'm.... kinda hoping that by some luck... some one finnish will log on to msn and i'll have some one to talk to....
i dont like my chances....
i have to give a huge thanks to Tiia and Capu though for keeping me comany the last few months, they have been keeping in good contact with me and its nice to know i'm not forgotten >XP as i some times feel although i know its not true X3

hahah.. i'm going to do something nerdy. i'm going to AVcon, i wanna see my friends in their cosplay and i wanna see if they win, and while i'm at it i drew up some stuff to enter the art compitition... the prizes suck and i'll probally give it to some one else... but i wanna see if i can actually win something XP.

since its actually wednesday here now i should say today, i shall have my lunchen with Lori and Colleen and then i shall cook every one dinner, yay, i love cooking right now! :)




oh.. i have a shout out for some people. some can read it on here some cant.

"I'M MEAN BECUASE YOUR FUCKING STUPID! if u took ur head out of ur ass you'd realise this! Dont think you'll ever get me back as a friend because i wouldnt piss on fire to put u out! Fucking slut!"

felt good to get that off my chest :3
i dont need to say who it is, they will know who they are

Bohooor!
god time is going sooooo slowly DX<
i want mira to hurry my and get here its getting pretty fucking lonely.

Oh i remember what i was gonna tell you guys now!
i went to the Port Augusta Cup.... sorry mira it happened before you came ):
i wore a vintage cream white dress thats all thick lace up the top with delicate dimond decorated buttons with pattened tights, its was pretty and my hair was all curly curly and i have a huge hat... i was prettyfull <3 SADLY my camera died in the ass that day so i am waiting for my friends to upload the pictures onto the internet so i can show you D:<

i was sooooo drunk as well.... it was a good day n_n

god i'm sick of my boss... i hope she falls in a ditch, really she is annoying, and so are alot of my fellow work mates this week... i have been in this horrible modd... where i am even less social then normal... and thats like saying something cause i am not that social here.
oh.. i also brought a new aqua blue dress.... its sooo hot! like hot hot! too bad i;m like.. fat fat and my boobs are actually popping out of it DX we must all just sit and hope that i lose weight... because dam it was only 50$ thats like... 25e!!! and its sooo beautiful! infact all my dresses i have brought this year have been really cheap ~<3 i'm such a little bargin hunter (yay me)

i'm actually pretty lucky that Colleen and Lori still wanna hang out with me.. i am becoming such a hermit.. its becaus ei hate spending money on things that dont show proof of my spending.. so like.. alcohol and food and other stuff that i cant say look what i ahve for all my work... i dont wanna do. i hope that changes once mira comes here and some one actually wants to do something worth doing... anything with mira is worth doing <3

dear lord i applyed today... i sent my visa application off in the mail with.. like everything i could think off, now lets just hope and pray that i get my visa on my first application and i get it back soon!

today... i saw some one doing.. cocaine..... in the middle of the town center... and then he abused some random passing by.... ok.. i was not manybe little freaked out. who does cocaine.... in the middle of the day in the busyest part of the city.. really?
apparently this loser

OH my i have had to restrain myself from shooping... right now is the winter stock take sales.. eerything half price!!! and i have snapped up soooo many cocktail dresses... one... is SOOOOO beautiful.. but a little tight around my boobs.. their popping out almost.. but we hoping its ok... because taryn will starve to death when she comes home to finland n_n living on my rice and tomatoes diet as Tiia knows i lived on.

i was thinking to myself that i would have loved to have lived in a bigger apartmnet... but after much thought i think it is best i stay with maija... as long as i can have my bed... i dont wanna sleep on the couch for 12months.. maybe i could invest in a curtain... a thick heavy hurtail to draw all the way around my bed so i have some kind of privecy?


i'm so excited about Mira... every one here is... we are all counting down the days i swear to god i get giddy just thinking about it!

i'm applying for my visa today....
dear god its horrible
horrible horrible horrible
stresssss
there r things on this paper.. that make no sense!!!!!!!!!

i tanned Lori today.
she's very white
she stripped down to her panties and nothing else in +9 degrees out side to be spray tanned by me.. she put bandaide on her nipples..... i'm still laughing about her tan lines
my hand is tan though... it looks like i cut it off a black person and sew it to myself... well.. what do u know... hmmm
oh well.
it so so funny

it clicked to me today
i know everyones secrets...
Australians and Finnish.
i know what you dont want people to know about you....
hahahah
it felt good thinking that just then.

ahhhg... i'm still having issues with sluts and little spoilt girls at work. its annoying when ugly AND fat people try and pick on u. You look at them like... wtf....
i think its because i'm kind of quiet at work and like to stick to myself and not be very social.. hmmm

Tomorrow is Hannahs funneral.... i know i'm going to cry alot becaus ei havent since i found out. i have just been in shock i think.

I spoke with tiia on msn tonight... it was great i loved it n_n we have many plans for the future.
Kielo Leila and Carmine Mik'iel are going to have a beautiful wedding<3<3<3 X''''D

my drawing has died in the ass. i hate my style at the momnet i ahve to work harder on it

i'm totally busting out of my skin with exsitment about mira comming here! i am planning everything out like a well organised assasin! Barhaha

i cant wait to get out of here. Oulu is calling me... i miss that place. i dont care what anyone says, its the most amazing town to me. it holds.. so.. so many GOOD... no... GREAT memories i could never live any where but there or Australia. once i'm in that town good luck getting me out. Oulu is my new life partner,i think i'll marry a city awwh <3<3
no... hahaha tiia knows what kind of guy i will marry ;D

also... i had a random come up to me today and ask me if i was a lesbian... for no reason..
i go.. "no i'm straight" and she goes.. "oh.. ok... suuuure" like she dindt believe me... WTF! come on... do i really look gay i even grew my hair long now! maybe i send of gay vibes... maybe this is why i cant get a guy... or at least a straight one... hmmm of well.

this weekend i go to father dearest... should be fun <3

i miss you guys... u should contact me more often... it makes me sad when i dont hear from u.

yes yes yes!
Mira is comming here!!!!
this is the happyest thing to happen to me in .. ohhh months
i cant wait to see her
also... MIRA YOU NEARLLY GAVE ME A HEART ATTACK! 22nd of june.. GOD!
ok see you baby... i gotta go do.. stuff.. joy

This morning i found out that last night at 11pm, one of my good friends who i have known since before i started school was killed in a head on car crash. out of the five people involved, she was the only one who died...
Hannah Goldsworthy was an amazing person. she was the only one who got better grades then me in my english class. she was.. ah amazingly creative and wrote the most beautiful stories and poems. for my going away party before i had ever gone to finland she wrote me the most beautiful letter and handed it to me. she told me that the world is a book, and those who do not travel only read a page.
Now i want to read the whole book.
i'm.. just in shock i dont feel anything just... numb... all over.
i cant believe she's gone. she was studying so hard at uni, she was always sacraficing to get where she wanted to be and now.... she's gone....
life, its too fragile....
its not fair