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Voices, they are calling my name.
They never stop and it drives me insane.
Even in sleep they torment my soul,
my inner demons take all control.

Slowly it's transforming me into a beast,
nails turn to claw and I got white fangs as teeth.

The hundreds of voices inside my head,
they will only stop the day I am dead.

Voices oh voices leave me alone,
why are you inside me and torment my soul.
Why don't you leave and let me be,
demons inside get out I beg thee.

I want to be free!

666 voices inside, telling me who's about to die.
They are in control of my mind.
666 demons inside, to kill them all only one must die.
It is a shame it must be me...

What have I done to deserve this hell,
am I better off dead or locked up in a padded cell.
I feel the demons bloodlust slowly increase,
saying that next murder must be a masterpiece.

Voices oh voices leave me alone,
why are you inside me and torment my soul.
Why don't you leave and let me be,
demons inside get out I beg thee.

666 voices inside, telling me that this one must die.
They are in control of my mind.
666 demons inside, I hear them rejoice when someone dies.
But I am the one with blood on my hands.

666 voices inside, telling me who's about to die.
They are in control of my mind.
666 demons inside, to kill them all only one must die.
It is a shame it must be me...

666 voices inside, telling me it is your turn to die.
They are in control of my mind
666 demons inside; I hear them rejoice now when you die.

A deed I commit, with a smile...

Väkisin nussitut pulut. kaikki jotka tuntevat omakseen!

Why don't you kill yourself!
Slit your wrists.
Slit the right one
now the left.

As a symbol for our end.
Hang yourself in the stairs.

Throw yourself in front of
a eighteen wheel semi truck.

Try to stick your pencils, up your nose
and smashing it into a table

Take a shotgun
and blow out your brain.
Your not using it anyway.

People don't care.
This is how life goes.

Take a heroin overdose.
Your death is your extascy
and it beats lusting for me.

Why don't you kill yourself
Slit your wrists.

Hang yourself in the stairs.
Throw yourself in front of
a eighteen wheel semi truck.

Try to stick your pencils, up your nose
and smashing it into a table

Take a shotgun
and blow out your brain.
Your not using it anyway.

People don't care.
This is how life goes.

Take a heroin overdose.

Carpathian Forest - Cold Murderous Music

olo saattaa tietenkin johtua siitä etten nukkunut viime yönä :)

EDIT: tää biisi on vaan niin helmi, pakko kuunnella vähä välii :D

Hyvä Koillis-Helsingin lukion opiskelija

Opintosi Koillis-Helsingin lukissa eivät valitettavasti ole edenneet tyydyttävällä tavalla. Nykyisellä tahdilla et todennäköisesti tule saamaan niitä ajoissa päätökseen. Siksi kehotamme sinua ottamaan välittömästi yhteyttä opinto-ohjaajaasi keskustellaaksesi opinnoistasi. Mikäli näin ei tapahdu, joudumme toteamaan, ettei tarkoituksesi ole jatkaa opintojasi Koillis-Helsingin lukiossa, ja tulemme lähettämään sinulle erotodistuksen 3.6.2006



ai että, oon kyl ylpee, vois kehystää tä paperin ;FF

Eilen oli ihanaa ^^


Muistin et mul alkaa tänää koulu 0940 joten heräsin kasilt.. no joo, eihän se ala ku vast 1140, olisin vittu voinu herää vast kymmenelt :EE

Illasta tulee taas ihana ^^ <3

Kerro viisi asiaa tai juttua, joihin olet koukussa (tai ainakin melkein)
...ja haasta viisi seuraavaa kertomaan koukutuksistaan:

1. Hanna
2. Musiikki
3. Tietokone
4. Coca-Cola
5. Dopamiini

haastan ensimmäiset viisi jotka tämän lukevat!

Laita musiikkiohjelmasi shufflelle ja vastaa kysymyksiin tulevien biisien nimillä.


Missä asut:Cradle of Filth & Sepultura - Fucked up Life

Kuvaile ensirakkauttasi: Nightwish - the Phantom of the Opera

Kuvaile tämän hetkistä ihastumistasi: Linkin Park - Points of Authority

Mikä on haasteesi: Infected Mushroom - Bombat

Ketkä ovat ystäviäsi: Kataklysm - Blood on the Swans

Kuvaile ulkonäköäsi: In Flames - Bottled

Mitä teit viime yönä: Kalmah - Tordah

Mikä on elämäsi tavoite: Turmion Kätilöt - Irstauden Ilosanoma

Milloin harrastat seksiä: Metallica - Devils Dance

Miten haluat kuolla: To/Die/For - Chains

Mitä sanot vanhemmillesi: Children of Bodom - Silent Night, Bodom Night

Missä vietät aikaasi: Rölli - Häläpäti Laulu

Mitä ajattelet yhteiskunnasta: Moonsorrow - Tyven

Kuvaile viimeisintä sydänsuruasi: In Flames - Gyroscope

Mikä on selityksesi kaikelle: Stratovarius - The Abyss of Your Eyes

Mitä ajattelet perjantaisin: For my Pain - Dancer in the Dark

Mihin kysymyksiin elämästä et ole saanut vastauksia: Sentenced - Farewell

Mikä on lempivärisi: In Flames - Free Fall

Mikä on neuvosi vähemmän kokeneille: Algazanth - An ode to the bringer of chaos

Mitä tekisit mieluiten juuri nyt: Thy Serpent - Only Dust Moves

Kuvaile parasta ystävääsi: Behemoth - Slaves shall Serve

Mitä on sänkysi alla: Killswitch Engage - Bid Farewell

Mikä on ollut suurin saavutuksesi: Skyfire - Cursed by Belief

Mihin menet häämatkalle: Katatonia - Journey Through Pressure

Mitä on TEE NÄMÄ -listallasi: Rammstein - Te Quiero Puta!

Missä olisit mieluiten juuri nyt: Nightwish - Walking in the Air

1. Etunimi?
# Rony

2. Nimettiinkö sinut jonkun mukaan?
# Ei, mutta tarina nimelläni on.. Lähi vuosina oli nimetty monia Roni nimisiksi, joten vanhempani halusivat erottuvani tarhassa joukosta, kengät helpompi löytää nimilappujen perusteella jne..

3. Luettele lempinimesi!
# emt, luetelkaa te? :P

4. Syntymäpäiväsi?
# 01.10.

5. Nimeä joku, jolla on sama syntymäpäivä kuin sinulla!
# Eipä tule mieleen ketään julkisuuden henkilöä, mutta Pilvillä ainakin on..

6. Asumismuotosi?
# Omakotitalo, keskellä tapanilaa, mutsin ja systerin ja kissan kanssa :P

7. Kengänkokosi?
# 43 oisko?

8. Vasen- vai oikeakätinen?
# Oikea.

9. Hiusten väri?
# Tällä hetkellä nämä kai ovat jonkin sortin punertavat, ruskeeseen kuitenkin vivahtaen :D

10. Silmien väri?
# Ruskeat.

11. Pidätkö piilolinssejä?
# En, mutta jonkin väriset olisivat kivat :)

12. Onko sinulla tatuointia?
# Ei ole, ja tuskin tulee :)

13. Lävistyksiä?
# Eip..

14. Poltatko?
# En.

15. Juotko?
# Juu....

16. Oletko koskaan juonut itsesi niin huonoon kuntoon, ettet muista mitään?
# Öö, olenko?

17. Lempijuomasi?
# Coca-Cola

18. Lempiruokasi?
# kai tähän on pistettävä se vakio, kinkku ananas pizza <3 JA MÄKIN JUUSTOT!

19. Lempijälkiruokasi?
# kaipa kaikki menee :>

20. Lempijäätelömakusi?
# Suklaa

21. Lempivärisi?
# Musta, valkoinen, verenpunainen

22. Lempiurheilulajisi?
# urheilu, onko se jotain syötävää?

23. Lempikuukautesi?
# hmmh....

24. Lempituoksusi?
# Tiedän että ainakin yksi tietää sen :)

25. Lempiäänesi?
# ;P

26. Vuoden lempipäiväsi?
# Jokainen jonka saan viettää rakkaani kanssa. <3

27. Uskotko jumalaan?
# En.

28. Pidätkö presidentti Bushista?
# En kommentoi, ei kiinnosta.

29. Onko sinulla nettipäiväkirjaa/blogia?
# Jos tätä sellaisena pitää..

30. Avaatko kengännauhasi, kun otat kengät pois jalasta?
# Avaan.

31. Montako tyynyä käytät nukkuessasi?
# Yhtä, se tosin on huono.

32. Esitätkö tähdille toiveita?
# En.

33. Katsotko vielä lapsille suunnattuja TV-ohjelmia/elokuvia?
# Elokuvia ainakin usein ^^

34. Oletko sarkastinen?
# Kyllä te tiedätte ;P

35. Onko kukaan sanonut sinun muistuttavan jotain julkkista?
# Joo..

36. Jos olisit värikynä, mikä olisit?
# Olisinko sittenkään?

37. Pidätkö lentokoneella matkustamisesta?
# Riippuuu minne ollaan menossa :D

38. Kokeilisitko/oletko kokeillut benji-hyppyä?
# En ole kokeillut.

39. Oletko koskaan laulanut yleisön edessä?
# Olen.

40. Monellako keikalla olet ollut?
# Aika monella.

41. Onko sinulla iPodia?
# Ei ole.

42. Imuroitko musiikkia (Internetistä)?
# Joo, ja paljon :>

43. Montako lainvastaista asiaa olet suorittanut?
# no tuota.. faija voi lukee tätä ;F noei.. en ole.

44. Oletko koskaan ampunut aseella?
# Olen.

45. Oletko koskaan tärvellyt tosissasi ja tahallasi toisen omaisuutta?
# En muistaakseni.

46. Oletko koskaan lyönyt vastakkaista sukupuolta olevaa henkilöä?
# En.

47. Oletko koskaan vahingoittanut itseäsi tahallasi?
# Heh, ehkä jotain pientä olen saattanut tehdä..

48. Suurin virheesi?
# Saanhan jättää kommentoimatta? :P

49. Mikä on kotoa katsottuna kauimmainen piste, jossa olet ollut?
# Rooma.

50. Jos voisit matkata minne tahansa, minne menisit?
# Hannan kanssa minne vain ^^

51. Millainen on unelma-autosi?
# En ole miettinyt hirveesti..

52. Oletko sinut pituutesi kanssa?
# No ihan jees kai.. pitempikin voisin olla..

53. Pidätkö käsialastasi?
# Sen tiedän ettei maikat pidä x)

54. Pidätkö itseäsi vahvana?
# Riippuu...

55. Mistä pidät itsessäsi vähiten?
# se yksi pieni, tai ei nyt niin pieni, juttu josta muutkaan ei mussa pidä..

56. Nimeä jotain fyysistä, mistä itsessäsi pidät?
# ;P .. noei.. emt..

57. Nimeä jotain ei-fyysistä, mistä itsessäsi pidät?
# hmmh..

58. Jos olisit joku muu, olisitko itsesi ystävä?
# Riippuu oikeesti ihan :D

59. Ketä ikävöit eniten?
# Hannaa.

60. Homoavioliittojen puolesta vai vastaan?
# Eipä oikeestaan ole mun ongelma, jos jotkut tykkää, en mä estä.

61. Oletko homofobinen?
# En ole.

62. Oletko biseksuaali?
# En.

63. Ensimmäinen asia, jonka huomaat vastakkaisessa sukupuolessa?
# hmmh.. Silmät.

64. Onko sinulla ollut vastakkaista sukupuolta olevaa vierasta asunnossasi?
# heh..

65. Minne haluaisit mennä ensitreffeillä?
# hmmh..

66. Kuvaile täydellisiä treffejä.
# Mä en ole koskaan ollut oikeilla treffeillä :o

67. Onko kukaan laulanut tai soittanut (musiikkia) sinulle henkilökohtaisesti?
# On, muistaakseni.

68. Onko sinua suudeltu ilotulituksen aikana?
# Kyllä.

69. Milloin sait ensisuudelmasi?
# tikkurilan juna-asemalla silloin joskus kauan sitten.. :)

70. Onko joku yli 10 vuotta sinua vanhempi yrittänyt iskeä sinut?
# öö, ei kai..?

71. Mikä sytyttää sinua?
# heh, mä en ole koskaan perehtynyt aiheeseen..

72. Mikä tappaa kiinnostuksesi?
# kyllä sen sitten huomaa..

73. Oletko ujo?
# En. Valitettavasti.

74. Oletko liian ujo pyytääksesi ketään ulos?
# En ole.

75. Oletko varattu vai sinkku?
# Varattu.

76. Oletko koskaan rakastanut ketään?
# Olen.

77. Kelle sanoit viimeksi rakastavasi tätä?
# ...

78. Milloin itkit viimeksi?
# En muista.

79. Oletko koskaan itkenyt ilman hyvää syytä?
# Hyvin mahdollista..

80. Oletko kiinnostunut jostain henkilöstä juuri nyt?
# Olen.

81. Koti poislukien, missä kävit viimeksi?
# Kaupungissa..

82. Mitä kirjoja luet tällä hetkellä?
# Noh, Narnian tarinat pitäs lukee loppuun...

83. Mikä on tämänhetkinen lempikappaleesi?
# Monia..

84. Mitä hiirimatollasi on?
# Hiiri? :P

85. Mitä katsoit eilen illalla TV:stä?
# En tainnut katsoa :)

86. Kenet haluaisit tavata juuri nyt?
# Hannan.

87. Jos voisit olla jonkun kanssa juuri nyt, niin kenen?
# Hannan.

88. Minkä väriset housut ja kengät sinulla on jalassasi?
# Mustat.

89. Millainen sää on nyt ulkona?
# Aika pimeet, emt, märkää?

90. Kelle puhuit viimeksi puhelimessa?
# Mutsille kai :P

91. Mitä kuuntelet tällä hetkellä?
# Cradle of Filthin Damnation and a Day levyn kuuntelin juuri kokonaisuudessaan.

92. Mitä söit viimeksi?
# Voileipää.

93. Viimeisin katsomasi elokuva?
# Constantine. tosin, viimeinen elokuva jonka näin ensikertaa oli Batman Begins.

94. Pelottavat elokuvat vai onnelliset loput?
# Pelottavat.

95. Kesä vai talvi?
# Kesä

96. Halit vai suudelmat?
# Molemmat <3

97. Rolling Stones vai Beatles?
# Jos noista pitää valita niin rollarit.

98. Kissat vai koirat?
# Koirat.

99. Sano jotain-ihan-mitä-vaan itsestäsi!
# jotain-ihan-mitä-vaan itsestäsi!

Alempana lempiversioni raamatusta, tuosta ikiaikaisesta, ja ah niin vertauskuvallisesta, tarinasta, johon jotkut perustavat uskonsa ja uskontonsa. Hölynpölyä sanon minä.

Loistavan levyn on Cradle of Filth saanut noiden sanojen ympärille muokattua, yksi lempilevyistäni. Jotkut väittävät levyä huonoksi, jotkut jopa bändiä. Asia ei näin suinkaan ole, ainakaan mielestäni.

Vaikka luettuna kyseinen tarina on hyvä, ainakin tuossa alempana olevassa lyhyemmässä muodossa, on se kuunneltuna paljon sisältörikkaampi.

"And the Earth was without form and void, and darkness was upon the face of the deep..."

In the beginning
Rimmed with wind and storm
A great black wrath of infinite math
Spat snarling into form
And there was Heaven
Lit up with precious stones
Each one could fall but for the rule
Of Faith and love and stronger thrones

And therein rose vast wonders
Affections to be seen
Fathered from the plundered
Reflections of a dream

Fogging into nightmare
For him whose place was set
With wayward stars that absent, marred
All creation with their theft

In the beginning
Bewinged and ringed with dawn
This favoured Avatar, enthralled
Swansongs from those that thronged this shore
With Gabriel and Michael
He shone with fierce intent
For loyalty, their joy to see
Him spur the hymns to heaven (sent)

For sculptured lips of seraphim
Whom fate then cruelly rent
(With sleight fingered strains of harmony)
Each note to grim portent

As grinning nimbus gathered
Over spires arabesque
For Him that blazed with holy praise
That for a jealous God was meant

Shining Feriluce
Lustrous scourge of fallen spirits
Basked in glory, flew
To lakes in sacred altitudes

Sweet haunting music swathed the breeze
With curling tongues that lapped the lead
As through thick mountain mist (with thoughts adrift)
Until at last, past grasping trees

He paused to draught forbidden streams
That whispered siren promises
To drown his thirst (for sports amiss)

These waters held secrets
Like raped Russian dolls
Wherein evil and good
Tore his soul for control

And drunk with the verse of desire's first words
The weight of the universe
Slunk in rehearsed

Horror in numbers too great to discern
The rotting of worlds to the conqueror worm
And love a rare orchid so fragile in bloom
Espied gasping breath under dark sheeted moons

Shining Feriluce
Reflected in jaded mirror
Climbing from the noose
Of time in divine servitude

And thus a strange new melody
Of will and wanton fantasies
Whetted by the veiled, seen
Danced from his ashen lips
In red dawn scores, the silver scream
Of truth and her deleted scenes
Was taken up as far, it seemed
As God his words eclipsed

(Those waters hid visions
Like butchers in war
Perverting the course
Of life's blood evermore...)
In the beginning
Skinned well with gibbous tones
Of countenance and ignorance
In equal measures sewn
A marbled arc of Angels
Sworn to the morningstar
Shared His pride and deep inside
Felt Chill Shadows sweep their cards

Distant vistas
Swathed in the haze
Of the reddening sunset
Fell to whispers
'Neath stars that marred descending skies

From the cusp of midnight mountains
Wending as a mist
Rebels truced with Feriluce
(In truth, few could resist)
Came praising his hellraising through
The sparse and marble clime
Where Virtue bathed, their ravings made
Her fountains flood with wine

Lifted with the gift
Of their dark seductive songs
She drifted from the path
She was surely set upon

Courting chaos
Prized in sight
Of the covering angel
Taught in ways of
Smothering another lover
Other than God

Worshipped in each other's arms
Like spider eidolons
The moon conducted like a charm
Those strange attachments on
And this is how they came to be
Dragged before the throne
Through tongues that hung whilst theirs were run
On soft white throats and punctured moans

Though fated now than later
By his tutor that had been
He baited the Creator
With the future he had seen

Of Michael, psyched with jealousies
A reich right by His side
And worming Man about to be
The apple of His eye

His children lost to free will
And the cost of beaten hearts
Like the night 'twixt vice and Virtue
When Her kiss became a scar

Seraph enemies
Why has my lord forsaken my judgment
Am I not free as He to indulge my darkest fantasies?

From embittered lips
These words were slathered
Split with the whips
Of their witch hunt gathered

He sought Her grave
Midst drowning crowds that howled in rage...
Blasphemer!
Blasphemer!
Though she was gone
Not lyriced to the song of their spirited throng
But ghosted back where she belong...

A grace embracing Michael
In a lace of tears that bleared his pride
He swallowed
Blood followed
Though with spit for all things divine
Though with spit for all things so fucking blind

His seal He tore
And to the floor
He threw this tie to heaven
Signifying holy war

And watchful of this sign
A thousand flames, unauthorised
Left celestial posts
To coalesce and, unified
Return their fallen leader
As he turned one final time
And threw a glance
Like a downward lance
That stung like guilt in every mind

As pride precedes the downfall
So he took His place before the firewall
Of dissonant choirs whose faith in one
Was embraced in this wraith whose fate was hung

Between forgiveness and the damage done

An electric scent over drear decay
Lent a violent surge to their serenades
Through white glades as His winged parade
Bent to silhouette and to sharpen dull razors

Within vast skies unversed in starkness
His might grew
And blew light hues to grey...
And worse, a third of stars to darkness

Then thunder seethed
And wreathed in thickening night
A line was drawn midst wrong and right
And across the throat of thieves

As love fell choked, the tempest broke
From Heaven's farthest shore
Descending to eclipse all hope
Repentance might stay holy war

He would not heel nor fake a bow
Murmur curses to the wind
Enraged, he raved in balrog howls
Upon a storm firstborn of sin

Incensed anew, rebellious tore
Like frenzied beasts of prey
Through temple doors...
Thrown east before the midnight masses

And where once bliss reigned so serene
In sweeter glades
Now veins ran openly...
Like eyes that shed from kindred ashes

When suddenly
There shone a hideous light
And a voice like three insanities
Soared up in thistled speech

"Thou hast bred hate where there dwelt none
And for this grave mistake
How thou art fallen Morning Sun
The proud will be abased"

He would not heel nor fake a bow
Murmur curses to the wind
And lo, the wrath of god swept down...

"Thou art no more an angel filled
With light, but a leech to be abhorred
And thou shalt suffer My burning will"...
Quoth this raven: "Nevermore"

Never fucking more

And with these words like heavy stone
Cast against that gilded throne
With many legions still in tow
He turned his wings to flee
His eyes a picture of distaste
Drawn to tears and in their place
The dawn of time and fates to face
Through all eternity...

I wept for him a deep red river
That ran like blood through scarred ravines
To sluice away the guilt that slithered
Like a serpent tongue to Eve
For once as I, in heaven climbed
Too high for truth to truly see
My sunken mind, drunken and blind
Saw the lie: The fool was Me...

Alone and cold, face to the crack
Beyond the dark gates with no way back
His crown of gold faded to black
Like a bruise upon the heart that lingers

With thrill-kill culture shock wave lengths
Of rope to hang high
Ten commandments by...
Snaked about his upraised fingers

"And there was war in heaven. Michael and his angels fought against the Dragon, and the Dragon fought and his angels, and prevailed not. Neither was their place found anymore in Heaven. And the Great Dragon was cast out, that old serpent called the devil and Satan which deceiveth the whole world, he was cast out into the Earth and his angels were cast out with him."
[Revelations 12:7-9]

Heart in hand passed clasp of pain
In dark lowland that set bad blood in veins
Burning, like penal fires roused to strain
The jagged-toothed skyline braced with crosses

The golden dawn
Lay lost to mist where
Emboldened thorns
Made their bed with toppled stones

He closed His eyes
Sunken to dream there
Of crow-black skies
And a great white empty throne
Horror stalked the bilious fogs
That balked his visions

He licked the spittle from the cheeks of the wry
And drifted back to when His stung its target
The sneer of Michael on a glorious high
Of angel dust and Virtue by his side

Drowning in the past
That downfall seemed like yesterday
Though blurred moons passed
As enemies in high places laughed

Moved to mirrors cracked with heavy lines
He rose snowblind, through shifting sands of time
Erased the trace and taste of bitter wines
The grapes of wrath grew fat on the vine

She came to Him
A little whip of tantrums
Thrashed on velvet skins
That lines Her wishbone Henge

Her name was Sin
A warming spurt of mantras
Splashed on occult tongues
That whispered sweet revenge

For the shame of their crawl from grace
Cold and hollow as the grave

And for a rape and ruinous scourge
Spared for souls that shared God's worship
For now their throats coated notes with dirge
That poured from parapets to the pits below

Drowning in the past
A wretched scream like yesterday
Died at last
With the rising of the revenant dark

All sharpened claws and blunt discharge

"I shall bow no more to the dogs of the Lord
Tearing at my carcass heart
I shall fall to my knees only at the keyholes
Of Virtue slipping into bondage masks...
Freewill made me better to reign in hell"

And with new wings
Unfurled and spoken
He took to things
That would desecrate the world

The seduction of both woman and man
For a bastard masterplan

Drowning out the past
Fool Fates unwound cruel yesterdays
beneath the stars
That staggered from the blast

So adept was unspoken Man
At dusting ledgers of the seraphim
That Lilith swept across the broken land
In a whirl of lust to pleasure him

This bland Adam, a reaper of the sun
In bone dry season, for Eve was busy sucking thumbs
Pricked in rosy gardens as he spattered into shells
And ran with morning fauna; His mastiffs and gazelle

Breathless as the wind
Adam, prowled, fell foul to Sin
But not before She spread Her grin
Across His silent lips
At crack of day, though what was shame?
The raptor's nest wherein they lay
Bore witness to Her soft parade
Of fingers come to grips

His undivine attention won
She deftly spun
From 'neath His thrusts to writhe above
In ecstasy
Pendulous She swung
As if her limbs imbibed His tongue
To spill, as with His rod
The secret name of God

But no seed passed those fruitful lips
For fearing Her who grasped, He slit
Her throat from ear to where She fled
With tail and blood between Her legs...

So very kept was the virgin hand
That brushed the treasures of Utopia
And how the greed swept across the desert sands
In late August just to measure Her

This hallowed Eve, a creature of the moon
A simple dish born with a silver spoon
Giddy sniffing orchids that opened after dusk
Incubus and Prudence, two such swoon to touch Her

Restless as the skies
Temptation, bloomed, found room to rise
And snatching breaths between Her thighs
He crawled to Eve...
At dead of night, the sticky clime
Smelt perfect to this serpentine
This shining Angel
Palled in mysteries...

Her undivine attention won
He deftly spun
A web of for the one
Great sacred tree
Bejewelled and lit
As if a thousand shades did flit
About boughs of forbidden lore
Hidden for the want of more

And when seeds passed those fruitful lips
And Mankind basked in vast eclipse
A Devil shot of thin disguise
Surmised to better paradise

Lurking in the shade
Of dark and fragrant trees
Shirking from the rage
That tore the heavens free
A vagrant Angel
His with span to see
The garden swell with terrors
To banish man and Eve

Another fall from grace
Whiplashed from the gates
Half-naked and insane
Full-blooded, breasted
Nerve ends tested
To behests of pain

A sombre lot to gain

A storm slid in
Borne by carnal winds
The upper ether thinned
And therein sat abominations

Satan seated there
Savouring the reek of desolation
Their dank despair
Moved His speech to leech the air

"Behold the golden door
To paradise is lost
So praise Me as you raised your Lord
And I shall thaw this gnawing frost"

Another fall from grace
Whiplashed from the gates
Half-naked and insane
And destined for a spiteful Fate
Wherein evil sought the shamed
As pawns in greater stakes
Across this cosmic game
To win the hand
Of darkness and
Set Her in her rightful place

"Cursed is the ground for thy sake; in sorrow thou shalt eat of it all the days of thy life; Thorns also and thistles shall bring it forth to thee; and thou shalt eat the herb of the field; In the sweat of thy face shalt thou eat bread, till thou return unto the ground; for out of it was thou taken: for dust thou art and unto dust shalt thou return."
[Genesis 3:17-19]

At the throat of the human race
With claws engorged and poised to rake
With that the pact was sealed
And as creation reeled
Bewitched oration filled
The hearts of all
Who came to crawl
Upon these earthen fields

A sombre lot to till

A wracked black acid song
Spat from the massive throng
Of Seraph knelt along
The deep red welt to domination

The deep red welt to domination

Reigning at the feast of Phantasia
Heightened pleasures were endeavoured to bow
Before My coronation and vocal aspirations
To rule this fool creation fallen 'neath me now

I knew deep eyes
Of a distant Christ
Were scarred from afar under starry lustre

Sighting my recitals on the rites of vice
Perverting Virtue
Enslaving grace
Behind the glittering mask of pride
Saving face finding thorns to pierce His side

Desire, the fire
Spread hell throughout my soul
And higher the wire
The more I sought control

Straining from the leash in exultation
Head to the wind to breathe with ravenous lungs
The global scent of fornication
A writhe of many vipers deciphering tongues

I whispered schemes to dreamers then
To pursue an Eden
That screamed of me supreme again
As my world bloomed
So too the moon
Through Adam to Seth, Enos, Cainan
Mahalaleel and Jared blew
Perverting virtue
Enslaving grace
Behind the slippery guise of lies
Saving face making waves to drown their faith

Messiahs, Pariahs
Aeons reversed the two
This higher, their spires
The more cursed grew their roots
And suffering...

I swept cruel seas
On the galley of the shadow of death

A fist in the cunt of the spread horizon
A kiss for the sun risen red once dines on
The coast of Menses

Discharged from celestial wombs
A first degree murder of ravens
Followed in fugue through the crack of doom

The Goat of Mendes
I set regime
In the galley of the shadow of death...

Angels in raiments
As pure as coal
Taking their payments
In tortured mortal souls
A bold direction
The abyss edge
But on cold reflection
One they warmed to nonetheless

As they preyed the paths of the righteous
Through the myth of thistled orchard floors
Bearing gifts of plenitude, for
The apples of the Lord were rotten to the core

Temptation, my ambassador

Attila, Hesiod, Pharisees and Nero
All begged of Me for more

Down dark steps of history
I waged war with a heaven
I could not see...
Beyond my wildest fantasies

Throwing sixes over deadly sin
I traded whose who played to win
Skin for precious kin...
And that that wormed within

Staining the reams of revelation
Etching ever-afters in accursed verse
The limpid rags of resurrection
From papal parapets were to dirt dispersed
Desire, the flyers
Spread hell throughout their souls
And higher the fire
The more I held control

To and fro, through freeze and thaws
From zenith to nadir
The universal tug of war
Saw lines drawn in the sands appear
Divisions of a promised land
And Hell for those that dwelt
Beneath a Pharaoh's granite hand
Where death wed something else

Millennia swam passed
Since the covened Ark
Ran aground on Ararat...

But anew, tempered shadows grew
Out of Midian, strewing fear
Over verdant lawns, the resurgent storms
Led a desert son to sear

From the palace orchard I espied...
(Where swooning trees and moonless beams vied
For the painted eye of the royal bride
Whose gliding curves were deified)
...beyond Her grace where love would die
Wretched destiny arrive

Back and forth the prophet came
Riddled with a tongue of plagues
That would render might Egypt lame
If the rage of God stayed unassuaged...
I listened with a heavy heart
But unveiled to the threats
This Hebrew in a jackal's mask
Would dredge into effect

Thenceforth the Nile reddened
s if Set stretched His hand
To beset the damned

And bruised with flies
The skies grew leadened

But these miracles, feared
Were all but reared
By nature, whose law alone
Stood that revered

This hysteria passed, but still the mark
Of Yahveh burned on in the dark

One final time, on the steps to the shrine
Of Thoth, I twined with fate
"Let my people go"
"Still my word is no"
"Then Death shall be the deciding plague"

Since the crimes divine I left behind
I'd warred with every tribe that plied
In holy vestament, but with time
Bored sore of clawing what was mine
I laid my bones and made my throne
With a view to paradise

Thenceforth the heavens deafened
As if great beasts
Were unleashed to feast on man

And with carrion span
Michael was weaponed

To descend with scorn
A dark reform
Through Pi-Ramses
Skinning mine and Her firstborn

Thus suspiria passed each sacred mark
Of Yahveh, bleeding in the dark

With nauseous dawn, a cry, forlorn
Unified from plazas deep
The prophet's curse
Far worse had worked
To wrest the war in me from sleep

Drowned in light, a downward light
Bathed the snaking exodus
Through the wilderness
As the Aeons crept
Impressed with fresh bloodlust

I bled on a pivotal stretch
Like a clockwork Christ
Bears sore stigmata, bored

And as I threw Job, I drove
Myself to a martyred wretch
To see if I drew pity
Or pretty litanies from the Lord

So the plot sickened
With the coming of days
Ill millennia thickened
With the claret I sprayed
And though they saw red
I left a dirty white stain
A splintered know in the grain
On Eden's marital aid

So glad for the madness

I walked the walls naked to the moon
In Sodom and Babylon
And through rich whores and corridors
Of the Vatican
I led a sordid Borgia on

I read the Urilia text
So that mortals wormed
As livebait for the dead

And as I broke hope, I choked
Another pope with manna peel
Dictating to DeSade
In the dark entrails of the Bastille
And as he wrote, I smote
A royal blow to the heads of France
And in the sheen of guillotines
I saw others, fallen, dance

I was an incurable
Necromantic old fool
A phagadaena that crawled
Drooling over the past
A rabid wolf in shawl
A razor's edge to the rule
That the stars overall
Were never destined to last

So glad for the madness

I furnaced dreams, a poet, for of sleep
Turning sermons with the smell
On Witchfinder fingers
Where bad memories lingered
Burning, as when Dante
Was freed to map Hell

I sired schemes and the means
To catch sight of the seams
And the vagaries inbetween...

And midst the lips and the curls
Of this cunt of a world
In glimpses I would see
A nymph with eyes for me

Eyes of fire that set all life aflame
Lights that surpassed art
In sight, that no intense device of pain
Could prise their secrets from my heart

I knew not her name
Though her kiss was the same
Without a whisper of shame
As either Virtue or Sin's
And pressed to Her curve
I felt my destiny swerve
From damnation reserved
To a permanent grin...

So glad for the madness

Burning flesh,
Dripping sweat,
Using them all,
like the paralyzing snake,
Charmed and enchanted by the babylon whore.

Led to other worlds
By the girls she curled within
I took their skins to see Her
Be my mannequin

Be my mannequin

I cannot remember
How it was that we first met
Curve of moon and haunted shore
The stars were not those Heaven sent

Did we come together
At masked palatial Balls
In silks and flesh and leather
Or did we come at all?
I dreamt a midnight castle
The eerie song of wolves
And eyes that danced with fire
As they have forever more

Our rites of sin
Have long fathered a hymn
To burden Him
Whom by slip of after whim
At genesis
Dressed Her like the wind
In Autumn gowns
That pinned Her down
To be my mannequin

Be my mannequin

Always poised on winter
But never would She break
My lovecraft and black witch heart
That pounded in Her wake

We kissed on distant balconies
A law unto Her own
Thirteenth dark commandment
Of figures pressed to stone
Turning cream with fantasies
That God alone would know
We graced vomitorium
With the sweet excess of Rome

Flagrant in the past
Our names were deeply carved On the tree of life in long dead languages

Led to other worlds
By the girls she curled within
I took their skins to see Her
Be my mannequin

Be my mannequin

I tongued the nuns at Louviers
But not one word possessed
Her divine right, an archetype
For mortal Goddesses...

I, I still recall, the first fullmoon of May
'Neath whose rays we lay together
And those bright nights on glassy waves
When we would glide lightly away
From the grain
For wicked flights of pleasure

Those visions fade
Like ghosts to life's parade
Though incisions once made her so vivid
A scarlet whore
With both heels in the door
Of a heaven severed from me, insipid

And midst the writhe of parapets
Where angels sigh, lonely she sits
Upon the lip
Only a slip from whence I beg Her

That I would wish
Her kiss a chrysalis
To break to make my fluttered heart amiss
And in those frozen moments won
From grief that creeps to wreathe the sun
in drapes inwove with deathshead wing
I thank God for the suffering

Love would have conquered all
But for the Rapture
That ancient plan for my defeat
Denied Faith skies that would have set Her free
It seems again dreams wend to capture

Once dancing in a spotlit waltz
Through shadowed dimension
Given to the rivers that bedizened Her eyes
The world drifted by in lost momentum

With no divine intervention

Regardless that the author
Of sin was me and I
Lay chaste of hate in Faith's embrace
As Mortals warred with more besides

They warred with life itself

And in those frozen moments won
From grief that creeps to wreathe the sun
In drapes inwove with deathshead wing
I thank God for the suffering

And I thank God for the suffering
As still I burn
For Her return
I would make my peace with everything

I, I still recall, the first fullmoon of May
Consigned to flames like secret letters
And midst the writhe of parapets
Where angels sigh, lonely she sits
Upon the lip
Only a slip from whence I beg her

That I would wish
Her kiss a chrysalis
To break to make my fluttered heart amiss
And in those frozen moments won
From grief that creeps to wreathe the sun
In drapes inwove with deathshead wing
I thank God for the suffering

Love would have conquered all
Were we not parted
Her splintered loss rekindles rage
The winter frost dwindles across my stage
Lit up once more to score finales started

Love would have conquered all
Love would have conquered...
Hate

Earth and sea cower from my screams
As I climb into the skies
Atop sins towered heaven high for me
From whence I see no reason why
I should not smite with vengeance
And hurl thieves down from paradise
For storms before were as nothing more
Than a breeze next to this night

I am Methuselah of the Tribulation
The Moonchild come to harm
A riot of stars shaken from their station

The choking smoke of Jerusalem burning
Six vices become wrath

And though half-blind with ravening
Like Phineus now I see
The end declared from the beginning
Love won through my defeat
But now I fear I will never peer
On Her radiance again
I shall glimpse instead, the slurried red
Of faces pressed to bloodstained panes

Betrayed and played by God
Who alone but He
Scapegraced and goated me?
Now I wish to piss on His parade

Angels, clawed with burnished wings
Still loyal, kiss the seal
Bent on knees and harrowing
Promise overkill

Know that you shall die like whores
And the cries of your writhings shall rise
To please their Lord...
So before the sword
Side with me in slaughter

I am Methuselah of the Tribulation
The Moonchild come to harm
The spoken horns of desolation

Drink the pouring of my fury
Those darkened waters spur
The brink of war as my judge and jury
And rapist executioner
Our time is short, the horsemen ride
A foul-breathed chora howls, besides
Damnation and a day has passed
This divine right to genocide

Weld the gates to heaven shut
The abyss leers in hissing ruts
Unhilt the black grimoire of death
Inscribe all names that God has left

I lived the dream of nymph and men
But now the nightmares come again

Now the nightmares come again...

"And the Earth was without form and void, and darkness was upon the face of the deep"


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