IÂ’ve got a lot of things to do tonight
IÂ’m so sick of making lists
Of things IÂ’ll never finish
IÂ’ve lived here for the last 12 years
Since early 1995 all my shit has been in boxes
But if I had a little more time to kill
IÂ’d settle every little stupid thing
Yeah youÂ’d think that I would
But IÂ’m too tired to go to sleep tonight
And IÂ’m too weak to follow dreams tonight
For the first time in a long time I can say
That I want to try to get better and
Overcome each moment
My own way
I wonder if IÂ’ll ever lose my mind
I tried hard for a while
But then I kind of gave up
Winter is killer when the sun goes down
IÂ’m really not as stubborn as I seem
Said the knuckle to the concrete
IÂ’m not saying that IÂ’m giving up
IÂ’m just trying not to think
As much as I used to
Cause never is a lonely little messed up word
Maybe IÂ’ll get it right some day
For the first time in a long time I can say
That I want to try
I feel helpless for the most part
But IÂ’m learning to open my eyes
And the sad truth of the matter is
IÂ’ll never get over it
But IÂ’m gonna try
To get better and overcome each moment
In my own way
I sure want to get back on track
And IÂ’ll do whatever it takes
Even if it kills me
-Motion City Soundtrack-