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ManiaKeskiviikko 29.07.2009 02:15

Look at my eyes, can you see young and healthy person?
Well, maybe yes by the outer shelter of human, I look like a young, healthy person. But in inner than shelter, the core, is throughly corrupted and twisted. Filled with extreme sadness and will to destruction. Can you believe it? I guess not. Because I'm acting like a normal person as I used to be. But when the process of mental illness has reached its limit and crosses the borders of my mind, something drastically horrifying will happen to me or others.. Who ever knows..

As you can see, I'm innocent to something that nobody can know, even I'm clueless, even though I'm sick... Human mind is erratic and random that nobody would be able to foresee from the beginning. Only after the acts of psychopathic person will make people around make noise about the incidents. So what we have here is a murderer, a robber, a rapist or just masochist, who dreams about the suicide that he/she can't commit. Even though I'm talking about myself, I know that I won't hurt anybody or myself physically, but in some cases, as I am, people just changes to another person like somebody turns from sober into drug addict. Everything I think just hurts in some way. For example, if there's a person I really care about and love, the longing is more and more painful as much I think that person I miss and love. You know what I mean? I think yes.

What is the purpose of this message? Why did I write something like this? Well, I have a reason for that and think it by yourself.. But I'm sure that this doesn't interest you that much that you would be concerned about my personal problems or something... So I'll cut the bullshit and you start asking unnecessary questions.



And by the way, I was just bored enough to write something like this crab.. Be happy for reading all this :D

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