IRC-Galleria

When will I return to nothing. I'm so eager to get into the void, darkness. Where there is nothing. Place where not even myself would exist. Yet I would recognize that I am there. I would be happy. To sleep a century or 2.

If I've shown few people the way out of the darkness. I don't know how many I'm supposed to help. But even 1:2 is more than enough already, in my head. That I would've already earned my place in that void.

I wish to just sleep, but something awakens me. Someone always awakens me. I cry now for I'm pushing forward because of not myself. I'm pushing forward without any energy. I'm already burnt out, but I'm still going forward.

One can't tell what my reason to exist is anymore. Now that I have none in my own opinion. Why there is no void. Why am I still here. Am I just supposed to wait.. ... ... ..?

If I am to wait. I would atleast just want to sleep during the meantime. Only to awake when I'm really needed. Then sleep again. Oh the joy if I'm granted this void...