IRC-Galleria

I woke up in a dream today
To the cold of the static, and put my cold feet on the floor
Forgot all about yesterday
Remembering I'm pretending to be where I'm not anymore
A little taste of hypocrisy
And I'm left in the wake of the mistake, slow to react
Even though you're so close to me
You're still so distant, and I can't bring you back

It's true
The way I feel
Was promised by your face
The sound of your voice
Painted on my memories
Even if you're not with me

I'm with you
You
Now I see
Keeping everything inside
You
Now I see
Even when I close my eyes

I hit you and you hit me back
We fall to the floor, the rest of the day stands still
Fine line between this and that
When things go wrong I pretend that the past isn't real
Now I'm trapped in this memory
And I'm left in the wake of the mistake, slow to react
Even though you're close to me
You're still so distant, and I can't bring you back

It's true
The way I feel
Was promised by your face
The sound of your voice
Painted on my memories
Even if you're not with me

I'm with you
You
Now I see
Keeping everything inside
You
Now I see
Even when I close my eyes
You
Now I see
Keeping everything inside
You
Now I see
Even when I close my eyes

No, no matter how far we've come
I can't wait to see tomorrow
No matter how far we've come
I can't wait to see tomorrow
With you

With you
You
Now I see
Keeping everything inside
With you
Now I see
Even when I close my eyes
With you
Now I see
Keeping everything inside
With you
Now I see
Even when I close my eyes





Sometimes I need to remember just to breathe
Sometimes I need you to stay away from me
Sometimes I'm in disbelief, I didn't know
Somehow I need you to go

Don't stay
Forget our memories
Forget our possibilities
What you were changing me into
(Just give me myself back and)
Don't stay
Forget our memories
Forget our possibilities
Take all your faithlessness with you
(Just give me myself back and)
Don't stay

Sometimes I feel like I trusted you too well
Sometimes I just feel like screaming at myself
Sometimes I'm in disbelief, I didn't know
Somehow I need to be alone

Don't stay
Forget our memories
Forget our possibilities
What you were changing me into
(Just give me myself back and)
Don't stay
Forget our memories
Forget our possibilities
Take all your faithlessness with you
(Just give me myself back and)
Don't stay

I don't need you anymore, don't want to be ignored
I don't need one more day, of you wasting me away
I don't need you anymore, I don't want to be ignored
I don't need one more day, of you wasting me away
(With no apologies)

Don't stay
Forget our memories
Forget our possibilities
What you were changing me into
(Just give me myself back and)
Don't stay
Forget our memories
Forget our possibilities
Take all your faithlessness with you
(Just give me myself back control)
Don't stay
Don't stay
Don't stay

Kiitos "nopean kehityksen", syyttäkää vaan itseänne corporaatiot

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No matter how I want to tear the memories apart
No matter how I slice and dice
No matter how I rip them to pieces
No matter how I want to burn them
No matter how I want to forget what it was

Why do I still remember so strong
Why do the memories still burst out of nowhere
Why do the memories haunt me from my heart
Why even the bits of ashes, their sparkle against the light remind me

I deny everything because it didn't work out
I deny everything because it wasn't forever
I deny everything because I chose to
I chose to forget
I chose to lock it up
I chose to never try again

I want it all to burn because the memories of what was then hurts more than to just wait for tomorrow
It is better to forget something if it was so important
Does this mean it was real afterall?
If it was real... Why didn't it last...

I was able to lock up my feelings once
All the memories in to one small box and lock it up somewhere
Why can't I do it now too
Because these were greater than anything before?
Because it atleast felt 99,99% real?
Tired... So tired... Of remembering... The lost love... A love that was supposedly true... But why didn't it last... Why do I think of it now when it has all been gone for half an year...

Goddesses... I hate how you work... I can imagine you laughing your asses off... It's not... funny...
since... it was all... for nothing...
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Taas tää outo tunne alko kalvaa mua.

Ootan innolla ihan sikana jotain puhelua.

En ymmärrä.

Ei kellää oo mulle mitää syytä illalla/yöllä ruveta soittelee.

Mut se tuntuu.

Hölmö tunne.

Meh~

Päivä meni paremmin kuin luulinkaan. Ennen loppuratkaisua MP3 soittimeni päätti päräyttää LostProphets - Streets of nowhere
Sanomana tietenkin everything is gonna be alright.
Ja näinhän siinä kävikin kuolinpesän asioita selvitellessä. :3
Juoksentelin pitkin LPR jotain 30+ km edestä, mutta oli se sen arvosta.

Viimeyö oli tosin mitä mielenkiintosin. Enne suihkua vähän alko masentaa. Sitten suihkussa kerrankin! TULI OIKEIN KUUMAA VETTÄ! Suurinpiirtein kikseissä ja ekstaasissa kun sain kerranki olla 20 minuuttia tulivedessä. (Vähän unohuin sinne) Tuntu oikein hyvältäääh~

Miks kaikki mikä kuulostaa hyvältä ja vasta löydät on nii ajankohtasia...



What you want from me.
What i want from you.
There's no working it out.
Take your hands off me.
This just cannot be.
I've got someone waiting outside.
Your tears coagulate dear this is our fate.
Just get the hell away from me.
Sorry i'm a bitch can't ever work through it.
Let's take the easy way out.

One last time and one good story.
Scream hallelujah scream hallelujah.
Once for the time you never came.
One more time and one for history.
Scream hallelujah scream hallelujah.
There's just no easy way out.

There is no memory.
In which i can see.
That even vaguely matters to me.
Don't know what to do.
Something i can't refuse.
That keeps me coming back to you.
It's not that i don't care.
I know that i'm not fair.
No honesty between me and you.
It comes down to this one half hearted kiss.
I'm drunk like a mad ass anyway.

You think you've figured me out i'm on my way outta town.
And if you had any clue i think you'd know what to do.(x2)

Vaihteeks taas jotain hyvää kuunneltavaa



Hyvää musiikkia, pirun hyvä tanssija, top kommentti onkin
"So how much of your soul did you have to sell to dance that well?"

Someone please rip my mind in to pieces for I can't do it myself
Someone please tear my heart apart and make it cold as stone for I can't do it myself

My memories haunt me, my feelings make me howl
I try to move on but the triggers are everywhere

I see that I have adapted things I couldn't accept before
Why now when I have no reason anymore
I see that I have learned now that I've lost
Why now when I have no reason to hold that knowledge anymore
I see goddesses laughing at me
Enjoying the 1 000 000 000 pieces of a puzzle I can't solve anymore
Words of a random song can wake up so much

There's no going back
Only forward
Only tomorrow can erase the lust for the yesterday
But because I'm nothing and nothings got me
All I have is yesterday
And everyday I only wait for tomorrow

Why now when what was then has already been denied

A regular shadow is when lights path gets blocked. But how about other kinds of shadows. Like the ones that born when you think of something. When you wish for something. When you dream of something. If you wish, think, believe and dream of something or want something bad. Is it that you create a shadow?

If you think you should do something bad and want to do it. Does someone else do it. Is that when you have created a shadow of yourself? Imagine someone who is all the bad you have thought you should or would want to do. And that person would resemble you by her/his looks.

The idea is somewhat nuts and frightening but never has it been proven how this world really works. Few people are "origins" and rest are only shadows the origin's thinking and wishes and dark thoughts has left behind.

Do other shadows than regular ones exist...? Those that are only mere mimics of someone and fail to follow the example. Copycats. It's like you think something you deny the idea but you have already created a being. Failed experiment. And that experiment would've gone haywire and causes havoc...

Meh~