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~ It's gonna be like this, it's gonna be like that. That's how it should look like. This is how it should be. Nothing seems alright. Nothing has been like it should have turned out. Everything seems so useless. My existence has provided no fruit. I don't see a place someone else couldn't fill. I haven't seen myself being somewhere specially useful. Why am I even alive anymore...~

The best case scenario dream

• Got money more than trash
• Used some of it by paying bloodline debts
• Used half of it by sharing the half between bloodline and friends
• Nobody cares what you do
• Spend the days however you like
• Drop dead to sleep anywhere anytime you like in your house

Jokeri tie... Niin mahollinen silti niin kaukana.

Vielä olis pari hommaa mitkä vois kattoo läpi enneku saa virallisesti masentua. Toki sittenhän olisi kotirouvan pesti aina, muttakun tässä on ongelma, että olen mies ja sehän ei ole miehille sallittu ei. Saatika tuskin sellaista naispuolista henkilöä edes löytyy joka tälläisen haluaisi. Meh... Kaikkee sitä aina löytää tilalle ku joku tie sulkeutuu. Sitten sitä taas valitaa yks ja tähätää päätteesee.

~The poison to end this misery I seek, the ingredients are a secret to me for the heights nor the sea feel like home to me. My quest is finished when this poison I find, or a Valkyrie descends from the sky and lowers her wings upon me to forge a weapon from this soul war ever seeking.~

Voi jumalauta ku ei saa ees lihapiirakkaa syötyä ilman haarukkaa ja veistä T_T

Inglorious Basterds, iz gud
Running With Scissors, mitä helvettiä mä just katoin
Ja se siitä yöstä sitten

"Jooei, me ei tehä nyt mitää, tää menee radiologiaa"

*käy leuka röntgenissä*
*menee takaisin*

"Vai sellasta"
*sörkkii sörkkii sörkkii*
*tökkii piikeillä pistää aineita ien kudoksen alle*

"Määrään sulle kipulääkityksen ja antibiootit"

"Röntgenistä näkee et tän hampaan ja vielä viimeisenki viisauden hampaan pitäs tulla ihan ok. En ymmärrä miksi tämä on sitten näin kipeä. Enemmän olen huolissani tuosta toisen puolen hampaasta (miun eka viisauden hammas jonka tulos ei ollu mitää komplexeja), koska sehän on tullut ihan sivusuunnassa. Et sen poistoa harkitsisin vakavasti."

*röntgenist näki et hampaan kruunu osio on seiskan kylkee vaste*

BAAAAAAAAAAAAAA, MUTKU SEN TULOS EI OLLU MITÄÄ ONGELMIA, eikä se oon mitään koskaan aiheuttanukkaa...

Yhyy... Ku ei pysty ku nukkumaan, avaamaa suutakaa kunnolla ja satunnaisesti hörppimää keittoja...

~ Everytime I'm to open my mouth, goddess finds a way to seal it. It is as I am never to speak. Never to open my mind. I wish my genes would allow my quietness too. But if I'm quiet, would the love of my life ever find me... ~

Helvetin kolmas viisauden hammas ku osaa tehä ilkeetä. Ien kudos nii kireellä ku se puskee kolostaa et "koskee". Jos ois unipillereitä nukkuisin vaan koko tän väliajan ku se tulee. Eikä se oo itseasias viisauden hammas vaan jokerihammas, hymyillessä ei tunnu mitää.

Ja tulin siihen lopputulokseen pilkku että "Etsin Seuraa" status on luotaantyöntävä. Aloitten tekeminen, on luontaantyöntävää jostain syystä. "Sinkkua" kyllä käyää kyyläämäs mutta siihen se jääkin. *sigh*
Deittipalvelut... WE HAVE A PUMA..! Ehkä pitäs ottaa vain hyvän ystäväni sanoista vaari ja vain odottaa yksinkertaisesti. "Älä turhaan etsi kyllä se joku sieltä jostain tupsahtaa kun odotat rauhassa."

Nyt tosin ymmärrän miks vauvat alkaa rääkyy keskellä yötä ku hampaat tekee tuloaa. Tää "kipu" on hyvin... kiusallista...

Noin, nyt on erottu siitä koulutuksesta... Keväällä ehkä metallialaa kokeilemaan.
Jotenkin ei kuitekaa harmita...

Jos olotilaa voi sanoa jokseenkin onnelliseksi niin joo. Tai sitten se johtuu siitä, että 24 tunnin valvomisella ja yhden tunnin torkuilla olen "sulkenut" puolet aisteista ja tunteista. En tiedä. Tuntuu ihanan "kylmältä".



~ Everyday that passes I see the life that isn't suited for me. It's a cocktail of misery, depression, satisfaction. Theory that proves to be correct, but is still a disappointment. It seems my happiness is quite the opposite of what is considered when thinking "happy person" by the book of society. Only few individual cases accepted... Where's the hole for this octagon...~

Ostin sit kaks kassia lähinnä säilykkeitä, terveisin hetken mielijohde.
Aaah, ruokaa...
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Ja pitihä se tänki tulla kuviohi

"Your crime is... It is... Your very existence."

"Friendship? What is it? I wouldn't know... I think it's just for weak to be naive."

"Let me tell you something... People that misbehaves for other people's sake, are the ones I hate most!"

"It is very interesting. What could have twisted you so much? You don't even seem to realize it yourself. Say, where are you exactly? These clouded eyes of mine, can't see you at all."

"Humans.. are weak aren't they?"

"Father, if you don't need me. Then why am I here. Where do I belong exactly? Do I have to live alone?"

"You're one weird human, aren't you? You're hurt, and yet you're still laughing. You don't care about yourself. You may be here right now, but you don't really belong anywhere."

"She's like light to me. She always show's her feelings as they are."

"I'm scared that I'm not human. I'm scared that I'm different from other chains... I fear the things I don't know. I fear the things I already knew... and at every moment... I always... more than anyone... fear myself the most!"

"He is another destructive angel. He will bring yet another calamity on this land."

"You're the kind of person who brings ruin onto others. And an especially wicked one at that."

"The unsolved maze"

"I'm telling you, if you sacrifice yourself so easily, you'll never be able to protect anyone. Your sins are too great. You're hurting everybody."

"Maybe this is just some ridiculous fairy-tale someone made up. Everything is shrouded with mystery."
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We
Saw the power to change the future
In our dreams

In the midst of the noise, I heard your cry
It exposed my weakness as I was laughing

The road that you go on is only known to you
So chase after a different sky

We desire the courage to face toward the future
So we get lost in the past
Until I return to the true present
Where you laugh

Thinking that I want to learn about you, for the first time
I was daunted by the distance between our hearts that can't come together

We understood that we couldn't understand each other, so with just that
We're starting

I want to embrace your tears, pains and everything
But I feel that the more I run, the farther I become from you and I get worried
Where should I go..?

In the midst of the noise, I hear you singing
Now I can see my form that I'd lost

Please give me the power to change
The future that I would've gone through by myself
You laugh, and with just that
I can fly high

We desire the courage to connect hearts
So we get lost in love
Until I return to my true self
That laughs with you
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~Maybe it's a mistake to rewind to past. Maybe I wont find any answers there. Still, it is the only place I can look for them right now. The cry for the power to change the past. Sounds more like a scream in the wind. Still... Even if there was a chance. Who would know the outcome? Is it really what one would wish for? If you'd wake up from the past, would you remember why and what you were to change... The Abyss... Seems so homey...~



~ And I wonder what happens in realité, as the hand goes a full turn and has carved the full picture.~