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I had to learn about anxiety at age 8.
I had to learn about depression at age 8.
I had to learn about death at age 8.
I had to try to understand the concept of suicide, at age 8.
I had to learn to keep myself alive, fed, at age 8.
I had to learn to live without support, at age 8.
I had to wonder if my own mother hated me, at age 8.
I had to wonder if it should have been me instead.
I can't keep myself together.
I am barely alive.

tunnen oloni seksikkääksi ja hyvännäköiseksi kun olen:
1. ilman meikkiä
2. väsynyt
3. masentunut

en osaa uskoa et näytän tältä.

en vaan jaksa.
en halua tehdä muutakuin tuntea oloni välitetyksi ja rakastetusti.
en tunne oloani hyväksi. en haluu olla yksin.
ansaitsinko kaiken mitä koin?
en ymmärrä miten olen tässä.
this is a cry for help-

Up there (yeah)

Who do I have?

Heaven and hell, my friend (my friend)

I won't shed a tear,

Let them see me in pain again,

Hello (hello), from the dark side in,

Does anybody here wanna be my friend? (my friend)

Want it all to end,

Tell me when the fuck is it all gon' end? (end)

Voices in my head,

Telling me I'm gonna end up dead (dead)

So save me (save me)

Before I fall (i fall)

So save me,

I don't wanna go alone (alone)

So save me (save me)

Before I fall (i fall)

So save me (save me)

I don't wanna go alone.

I think I, I think I finally,

Found a way to forgive myself,

From mistakes I made in the past,

I think that's the first step, right?

You agree?


I've dug two graves for us, my dear,

Can't pretend that I was perfect, leavin' you in fear,

Oh man, what a world, the things I hear,

If I could act on my revenge, then, oh, would I?

Some kill, some steal, some break your heart,

And you thought that I would let it go and let you walk,

Well, broken hearts break bones, so break up fast,

And I don't wanna let it go, so in my grave I'll rot,

I've dug two graves for us, my dear,

Can't pretend that I was perfect, leavin' you in fear,

Oh man, what a world, the things I hear,

If I could act on my revenge, then, oh, would I?

Some kill, some steal, some break your heart,

And you thought that I would let it go and let you walk,

Well, broken hearts break bones, so break up fast,

And I don't wanna let it go, so in my grave I'll rot,

In the grave, I'll rot,

In the grave, I'll rot,

In the grave, I'll rot,

In the grave, I'll rot,

In the grave, I'll rot,

In the grave, I'll rot,

In the grave, I'll rot,

I'll rot, I'll rot, I'll rot (is my pain your freedom?)

Is all of my pain your freedom?

Enjoy

I don't feel much pain,

Got a knife in my back and a bullet in my brain,

I'm clinically insane,

Walkin' home alone I see faces in the rain,

Where did all the time go?


I can show you everything I learned,

While you were away from me,

Runnin' away from me, but I'm not givin' up on you,

It's just the way I be,

It's just the way I see things,

Take her away from me, but I'm not givin' up on you, no,

It's just the way I be,

It's just the way I see things.

You should've seen by the look in my eyes,

That there was something missing,

You should've known by the tone of my voice,

But you didn't listen,

You play dead, but you never bled,

Instead you lie still in the grass all coiled up and hissing.


And I know all about those men,

Still I don't remember,

Because it was us baby way before them,

And we're still together.


And I meant every word I said,

When I said that I love you I meant that I love you forever.


And I'm gonna keep on loving you,

Because it's the only thing I wanna do,

I don't wanna sleep,

I just wanna keep on loving you..


And I meant every word I said,

When I said that I love you, I meant that I love you forever...


And I'm gonna keep on loving you,

Because it's the only thing I wanna do,

I don't wanna sleep,

I just wanna keep on loving you..


I don't wanna sleep,

I just wanna keep on loving you.

Starry eyes,

How can I get to you, my true little,

Starry eyes,

What can I say or do for you, my little,

Starry eyes,

Starry eyes forever,

Shall be mine,

Starry eyes,

What can I say to make you listen,

Starry eyes,

What can I do for your attention,

Starry eyes,

Starry eyes forever,

Shall be mine,

When I'm alone I hear and feel you,

Wish that I could reach right out and touch you,

But knowing you're the one to greet me, and meet me,

Two alone in the dark, may it be,

Starry eyes,

The sparks will fall on me,

Starry eyes,

Won't you listen that I'm here being,

For you, starry eyes,

Starry eyes forever,

Shall be mine,

Starry eyes forever,

Shall be mine.

And when you go away,

I still see you,

The sunlight on your face in my rearview.


Sunsets,

I wanna hear your voice,

A love that nobody could destroy.


And when you go away,

I still see you,

The sunlight on your face in my rearview,

This always happens to me this way,

Recurring visions of such sweet days.

Oh, I missed you and I cried,

But I said that I was alright,

And I know it's been a while,

Since I needed a distraction,

'Cause I wanna do everything,

That you want me to, to tell you the truth,

I need to stay alive,

So sad that I could die,

It's leading me on, every time we touch,

Leading me on, every time it hurts,

Feeling so lonely, 'cause it's not enough,

Missin' you only ever since we fell in love,

And I watched you do a line,

That you spread out on the table,

I don't need to see you wired,

I just wanna see you upside down,

I wanna do everything,

That you want me to, to tell you the truth,

I listen to you cry all night,

Through the telephone,

It's leading me on, every time we touch,

Leading me on, every time it hurts,

Feeling so lonely, 'cause it's not enough,

Missin' you only ever since we fell in love,

Couldn't say you didn't want me there,

When we were lyin' in my bed that night,

You were acting like a different person,

As if, suddenly, you wanted to just be friends,

I was hurting so I took a shower,

So you couldn't hear me, knowing I had to cry,

Sad to know that while my heart was breaking,

You were sleeping or just faking,

It's leading me on, every time we touch,

Leading me on, every time it hurts,

Feeling so lonely, 'cause it's not enough,

Missin' you only ever since we fell in love.