I look in a mirror.. I don't see same happy face that i had seen a few months ago. My face looks so tired..so white and pale. And eyes.. formerly I saw a hope in my glance. Now it's empty. Like i'd never felt anything. Did I ever have feelings? or had i just pretended whole my life? I can't answer even to my own questions,cause I don't feel anything anymore. Don't ask my estimation.. i don't have it. My body works just to drawing out my suicide,but it can't keep working very long. Nothing can't prevent me.