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A: "MULT TIPPUU HOUSUT"
H: "Anna, ei sul ees oo housuja jalassa...."
A: "..."

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"Heidi otas mulle toi uunipannu valmiiks tohon"

Heidi sanoo:
vittu oon niin hyvä et kusenki kymppikokeita

"SIIS TOI PUHELIN ALKO ÄRSYTTÄÄ MUA NIIN VITUN PALJON ET MÄ SIT HEITIN SEN TONNE JÄRVEEN"


ekskusemua anna............. :D:D:D

I'm so tired of being here
Suppressed by all my childish fears
And if you have to leave
I wish that you would just leave
'cause your presence still lingers here
And it won't leave me alone

These wounds won't seem to heal
This pain is just too real
There's just too much that time cannot erase

When you cried I'd wipe away all of your tears
When you'd scream I'd fight away all of your fears
I held your hand through all of these years
But you still have
All of me

You used to captivate me
By your resonating life
Now I'm bound by the life you left behind
Your face it haunts
My once pleasant dreams
Your voice it chased away
All the sanity in me

These wounds won't seem to heal
This pain is just too real
There's just too much that time cannot erase

I've tried so hard to tell myself that you're gone
But though you're still with me
I've been alone all along

En enää ikinä....

Never been a girl who used to cry
Didn't show emotions, don't know why
Didn't wanna feel the dream inside
I guess...
But as the years kept going by
You came along and changed my mind
I should leave the past behind me
I should let you find me
Suppose to stay beside me
You're supposed to guide me
Trough the ups and downs
You were always gonna be around 'till the end

I still think we could
'Cause you and me we're good
And I tell you why this hurts: 'Cause I'm sober

And I just wanna be drunk
So I can forget about you
And all those stupid things that love has put me trough
Even when I've had too much
I still feel your touch
Maybe this just means I'm not drunk enough

So I pour my self another drink
Whenever I start to think about you
As I do, and I really don't want to
But sometimes memories just comes trough
And when I get there, to a place where I see you in a kitchen
As I'm wishing for that thing,
Don't need you, don't even wanna see you
And I don't wanna you to see me
You'd think that I was crazy
Might think that I wanna be close to you
But I rather wanna drink some whiskey
And maybe have a little sip of wine
'Cause right now it's the only thing that makes me forget you were mine
But right now I'm sober

I still think we could
I'm not drunk enough
'Cause you and me we're good
'Cause I'm sober

I'll tell you flat out
It hurts so much to think of this
So from my thoughts I will exclude
The very thing that
I hate more than everything is
The way I'm powerless
To dictate my own moods

I've thrown away
So many things that could've been much more
And I just pray
My problems go away if they're ignored
But that's not the way it works
No that's not the way it works

When I go down
I go down hard
And I take everything I've learned
And teach myself some disregard
When I go down

It hurts to hit the bottom
And of the things that got me there
I think, if only I had fought them

If and when I can
Clear myself of this clouded mind
I'll watch myself settle down
Into a place where
Peace can search me out and find
That I'm so ready to be found

I've thrown away
The hope I had in friendships
I've thrown away
So many things that could have been much more
I've thrown away
The secret to find an end to this
And I just pray
My problems go away if they're ignored
But that's not the way it works
No that's not the way it works

Any control I thought I had just slips right through my hands
While my ever-present conscience shakes its head and reprimands me
Reprimands me
Then and there
I confess
I'll blame all this on my selfishness
Yet you love me
And that consumes me
And I'll stand up again
And do so willingly

You give me hope, and hope it gives me life
You touch my heavy heart, and when you do you make it light
As I exhale I hear your voice
And I answer you, though I hardly make a noise
And from my lips the words I choose to say
Seem pathetic, but it's fallen man's praise
Because I love you
Oh God, I love you
And life is now worth living
If only because of you
And when they say that I'm dead and gone
It won't be further from the truth

When I go down
I lift my eyes to you
I won't look very far
Cause you'll be there
With open arms
To lift me up again
To lift me up again






It really hurts.

I watched the proverbial sunrise
Coming up over the Pacific and
You might think I'm losing my mind,
But I will shy away from the specifics...

'cause I don't want you to know where I am
'cause then you'll see my heart
In the saddest state it's ever been.
This is no place to try and live my life.

Stop right there. That's exactly where I lost it.
See that line. Well I never should have crossed it.
Stop right there. Well I never should have said
That it's the very moment that
I wish that I could take back.
I'm sorry for the person I became.
I'm sorry that it took so long for me to change.
I'm ready to be sure I never become that way again
'cause who I am hates who I've been.
Who I am hates who I've been.

I talk to absolutely no one.
Couldn't keep to myself enough.
And the things bottled inside have finally begun
To create so much pressure that I'll soon blow up.

I heard the reverberating footsteps
Synching up to the beating of my heart,
And I was positive that unless I got myself together,
I would watch me fall apart.

And I can't let that happen again
'cause then you'll see my heart
In the saddest state it's ever been.

This is no place to try and live my life.

Who I am hates who I've been
And who I am will take the second chance you gave me.
Who I am hates who I've been
'cause who I've been only ever made me...

So sorry for the person I became.
So sorry that it took so long for me to change.
I'm ready to be sure I never become that way again
'cause who I am hates who I've been.
Who I am hates who I've been.

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