Staring at my food but I can not eat it,
Laying in my bed but I am not sleeping,
Crying in my room and I keep it top secret,
Because people tell me they care but they do not mean it
I'm cut open even thought I am not bleeding,
My heart is broken so I'm gonna make it stop beating,
In a second all that shit wont matter ...
I ain`t a happy person and I ain`t that light.
They`d know how...
Bad I want to take this knife and be ...
Killing myself.
Stop crying ...
Smile ...
Find a pen ...
Write down some last words...
Thoughts of suicide keep crossing ...
My mind on a regular basis ...
Look me in the face, I`m I`sick in my eyes...
Cause I`m sick in the mind ...
I`m patiently waiting for the day ...
That I can rest in peace ...
At times I forget how to fucking smile ...
I quit, I`m bailing, I`m done ...
I finally give up.