IRC-Galleria

do you know what it like to have ur heart broken by some one who is not meant to hurt you like that?
my party is today and one of my best friends said "oh i cant come" i asked why and its because she wants to go FISHING!
it hurt me so bad. we have been friends for so long and this is whats more important to her and she promised to bring the gin and now she wont and now i have to spend even more money D:<
gah.
i wanna be home now i'm sick of it here. but i know i will miss my mum so badly. because she and my brother have been all i have ever had. and now... they will be gone...
man..
but... i have to move on i guess. i have 3 months to get that visa
if i dont get it, i guess i will be seeing my family sooner. but at the same time i dont wanna come back here because i need my fins so badly. i only feel like myself when i'm with them, because... i feel like i belong and i'm happy. its all so weird and scary for me.
i'm especially scared about flying there. i'm worried i'll miss my plane, i dont really wanna be stuck in china for 11 hours at the air port DX. and i'm worried about when i touch down in Helsinki, that i wont know where to go or i'll get lost and miss my train or... oh god knows.. maybe i should get in contact with Akseli and he might be able to help me get there on time but i feel guilty because i only contact him when i need help and i really like Akseli, he was my first finnish friend and i have to admit i had a smallllll-ish crush on him when he was in Australia XD. but now he's just a great mate.
eek. i hope that Else can come and get me... or i hav to rely on my finnish speaking skills... oh god... i'm doomed...
ok, maybe if i just ask some one for a bus that takes me to the train startion i shall be fine, and ask the lady for a ticket to Oulu.. yeah... that sounds like a plan... hmmm...

at the momnet... i'm watching Satu and Mert... play something, i hazard a guess that its Melee...
aand every time i look at the screen they are looking at me... and slowly... they are... getting closer and closer to to the bottom of the screen... wtf ... is he doing? he has almost folded over on himself lie some kind of .. suitcase... lol. dam i hope he dyes his hair.. not blonde... thats my thing. stealing my style D: < gah. oh well. hmmm... satu still looks the same as when i last saw her... thats colol, thats ind of what i want, i dont want people to change, because ever one was so perfect to me before, even with all ya flaws XD
ohho man i'm cold i cant feel my fingers. why is it so fucking cold here, i like in Australia... its not meant to be cold! gah
i hate the cold... why am i going to finland... i'm mad.. thats it ive lost my mind DX

oh god, i went to Colleens Boyfriends party... he's only 16 but meh, what ever.

(omh i want Satu boobs.. their huge on this angle!)

but yeah anyway.. Loki is the boys name.. short for Lochlan i guess. FREAK omg huge freak. he THINKS he's a vamprie! and that he has multiple personalities, like... 8! and his ahir is like... HUGEEEEE!!!! like ihave never see hair like that not even on hairspray! not even if asanti was to gro a fro!
man! like he's not mean, just somehting wrong going on it there and this kid called Phillip... i wanted to smack him out with in 2 seconds of meating him. like bam, right in his face.. but i was wearing a long dress that cost me 100$ and i wanst gonna risk the blood cause its white. AND colleen wa attacking me on the floor cause i beat her at sing star and my bracelet got stuck in my dress and mad a run in the top near my boob! it took me hours and hours and HOURS to fix it just working away fisxing it and u know what. i FIXED IT BITCHES cause i'm good!

ok enough rant i'm good now n_n