I don't know wether I'm anxious or fearful for the day death will snap it's fingers on me.
I believe the thing itself exists and can be challenged as final when you die. Yet one can't say it is true, but when my time comes. I will challenge it... Prize unknown, but if I am to choose, I am to never be reborn again. I am to be sent in to perfect void and darkness. Where nothing will disturb me.
I see the clock in digits of three. Some say it means someone is thinking of you, some say every time from 111 222 333 .... 555 ... 1212 means a different thing. But I believe when you've seen 2 full circles. Day and night. It means time's up.
I feel curious. I feel anxious. I feel fear. I feel joy. I feel sadness. Most of all. It is the ultimate being I can prove myself to. If I'm to lose I'm to serve. If I'm to raise victorious, I'm to declare myself immortal.