IRC-Galleria

i dont know why but all of my life was kind of moving away from somewhere to another. there are only some stations on the way. i take some rests and go on my eternal journey. sometimes i really want to stop somewhere for ever.

despite wanting to stop somewhere , travelling is fun. i like travelling alone. tomorrow i am going alone to ankara at night. it will take 8 hours by train. in the dark night there will be a train which goes as fast as a turtle with a great noise on the railway. then another adventure will start for me. a new life away from home new people new stuffs to do. they are acceptable if i can accomplish my object which i thought of just before leaving another station of my life.

whatever. tough days are about to begin for me. hopefully i ll make it!

today was the official end of my exchange year. it finished and a new life is waiting for me in the future. i did many things during the past 11 months including big mistakes and some good decisions. if you asked me about how my exchange year was, my answer would be "nice".
many factors affect on my answer.
firstly i admit that i couldnt have a better family. i love them so much. they helped me a lot. and my friends... they are my real friends. they miss me like i miss them. they protected and helped me during the year. we drank together- and i still miss those moments of my life-, shared something and had good time together. i love the environment of finland and it is one of the most beautiful countries on this planet. i was bored about the landscape when i was there. but now i can realise it better it was so nice. the winter was so cool. i love it. the pureness of white. everything looks like frozen and the trees are like crystals.there are many things like the ones i just wrote.
i think i am finishing my päiväkirja here for today. it was very nice to be there.however it is over. maybe some day will come and we will meet again...

here in istanbul, the weather is nice but hot. i was sitting home all alone during the day and drinking some beer and vodka. the reason is not clear to explain. but you finnish guys just drink right? so we dont need a reason. känni päälle!!! this is the password to have a better life but unforunately i couldnt be wasted today. i dont know why. i drink even when i am hungry so much. but i doesnt affect on me as i expect. i couldnt be drunk today. even though i would like to be so much.

yesterday i was watching the bridge from the balcony. it was so beautiful. there was also full moon on the asian side. well i think i havent explained where i live. i live in istanbul turkkissa. at the last point of europe. i can see the asia and the bridge well. but there is something is missing here. i think it s a person. i believe that some day will come and the one who is missing will come and find me then also the one will rescue me from the situation i am in.

after living with foreign people you gain so many things. you understand that the world which you know is nothing. it is like a piece of sand in the ocean. then you start to look for other sand pieces and try to understand the things which are going on around you. sometimes you feel bad. but you can notice that the solution is so close to you. try to understand people around you cuz when we translate our thoughts into words we lost the meaning even just a little bit. lost in translation. there are many things like this just think and try to understand what the person is talkin to you mean, how the person feels. then you will open the door of another world which is for the people are good enough