IRC-Galleria

so yeah ummm.. went to adelaide.. it rained alot. colleen came with me
i spent 450$ in 20mins i brought wicked bondage ankle boots, a new leather jacket, some shorts and some stockings. i had coffee with anthony.. it was weird... i didnt like it.. we didnt talk about things that made me comfortable, and the whole time i just wanted to leave. He questioned me on things about my life that i dont like thinking about so yeah.. i dont think i'll do that again
but yeah.. so far my birthday doesnt even feel like it happened really.. just another boring depressing day i guess...
and now.. i'm about to go out to the best chinese place in the whole town.. and i have been planning this all week... and only 2 out of all my friends would come... the rest is family. and i just got a phone call from one, that their not cumin.. i said i would pay for them since they said they didnt have the money.. but their all like.. ohh no.. i'll just come say hi.. give Charlie her 21st birthday gift from February and go... people think i'm anti social because i'm always by myself and dont go out to partys or hang with people... its not me thats anti social.. its every one else who just doesnt wanna be around me.
When i hung up the phone i stated screaming and swearing and threw the phone aross the room. i'm so angry and then mum was following me all around the house yelling at me too. so far.. this is so fucking stupid birthday. i dont like it.
i wish it never happened.. i hate being 20 i feel ...old.