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i finaly decided on what i am gonna get tattooed on me! i'm gonna do it before the end of the month!
i have always had an obession with things lasting for ever. and now my new passion is finland and the people in it. and i have been humming and haring about what to get and i was always going to get somehting australian, you know... i'm so aussie! but now i realise... i dont wnat to be *aussie aussie aussie oi oi oi* any more, i wanna concret my self to finland, even if i am torn away for ever.
what i am getting tattooed represents all my feelings for the people i love and like, for my nationality, for my passion, for who i am. its perfect!
its so simple and kinda silly, but i feel its really suiting to me! i never wanted anything fancy or like *hooo wow!* just somehting to sum up my emotions on my skin. i'm gonna get it on my back, just below were my neck bends. and no... no stars XD
tiia drew it on there to night and its perfect, its what i want!
i hope the tattoest can get it as perfect as what she did :)

omg... i'm so at peace at the moment. this is rare for me. i have this fear of not having a plan... i hate it when i dont know what i'm doing long term. its why i freaked out when i first went back to australia.
anyway.
i am going to go back to Australia, and once there i will go back to work and study, once i have finish my degree i shall come back here again. i much happier now. you all know i will come back. i should be 21 when i come home agian. thats not so bad is it... my corse i am gonna do takes 24 months, or i can cut it short and it would be 9 month. i dont really wanna leave, but i dont have a choice really. i dont wanna go... i feel heart breakingly guilty to leave. i know i think i hurt people but fucking around with this, but i never wanted to hurt people, but i have to go, but i will be back. but think of it this way.... i have 3 months of plain pure fun! and over 1000e to enjoy! we can have some real fun with that n_n
i love you guys, some more then others
but yep. is my plan now days
that or marry some one XD

its funny... Oulu is just the same way i left it. same people. same things... same issues

i'm in Hongkong! is huge. i have had 3 hours of sleep... for a total of two days of traveling. my plane leaves at 9:30 and its only 4:11... ehhh...
fun
and then 10 hours to helsinki... were... *sniff* i shall get off the plane alone, decide... bus or taxi...and get on the train to Oulu for a further 8 hours... joy.. i'm sure
where i will arive at Oulu and mira shall take me back to her apartmnet. people who i have told can come and see me at the station or miras.
LISTEN. if i didnt tell u what time i get into Oulu, do not try and come... or u will ruin my hard hard work on surprising you with my super cool gifty. This means you mert!

well i was watching this.
http://video.msn.com/?mkt=en-au&brand=ninemsn&tab=m182&mediaid=200718&from=39&vid=7861E3C5-D5AC-4D9C-A9A7-F737BF928596&playlist=videoByTag:mk:en-AU:vs:0:tag:auentertainment_aumovies:ns:MSNVideo_Top_Cat:ps:10:sd:-1:ind:1:ff:8A
a clip from HSM3 yeah.. all good and all happy cheeryness and all that crap
but then i found this and HSM will never be the same for me

http://celebrities.ninemsn.com.au/blog.aspx?blogentryid=160482&showcomments=true

yeah...

IT'S DONE i finlay finished it, after.. god knows how many months of pain! now i have to pay extra to take it on the plane... curses!
good thing it doesnt weight much. oh i wish i could show u guess, but then .. the slut will see it and it will ruin all my hard work so yeah n_n

oh.. the pain... the tragic epic pain...
my head is about to exsplode. when ever some one spoke to me it sounded like a gun going off in my ear ohh... i'll never drink like that again DX
on the other hand i had a great night. a few gate crashes showed up but i was too drunk to do fuck all about it. i hated one with a passion too!
ah...it hurts...

do you know what it like to have ur heart broken by some one who is not meant to hurt you like that?
my party is today and one of my best friends said "oh i cant come" i asked why and its because she wants to go FISHING!
it hurt me so bad. we have been friends for so long and this is whats more important to her and she promised to bring the gin and now she wont and now i have to spend even more money D:<
gah.
i wanna be home now i'm sick of it here. but i know i will miss my mum so badly. because she and my brother have been all i have ever had. and now... they will be gone...
man..
but... i have to move on i guess. i have 3 months to get that visa
if i dont get it, i guess i will be seeing my family sooner. but at the same time i dont wanna come back here because i need my fins so badly. i only feel like myself when i'm with them, because... i feel like i belong and i'm happy. its all so weird and scary for me.
i'm especially scared about flying there. i'm worried i'll miss my plane, i dont really wanna be stuck in china for 11 hours at the air port DX. and i'm worried about when i touch down in Helsinki, that i wont know where to go or i'll get lost and miss my train or... oh god knows.. maybe i should get in contact with Akseli and he might be able to help me get there on time but i feel guilty because i only contact him when i need help and i really like Akseli, he was my first finnish friend and i have to admit i had a smallllll-ish crush on him when he was in Australia XD. but now he's just a great mate.
eek. i hope that Else can come and get me... or i hav to rely on my finnish speaking skills... oh god... i'm doomed...
ok, maybe if i just ask some one for a bus that takes me to the train startion i shall be fine, and ask the lady for a ticket to Oulu.. yeah... that sounds like a plan... hmmm...

at the momnet... i'm watching Satu and Mert... play something, i hazard a guess that its Melee...
aand every time i look at the screen they are looking at me... and slowly... they are... getting closer and closer to to the bottom of the screen... wtf ... is he doing? he has almost folded over on himself lie some kind of .. suitcase... lol. dam i hope he dyes his hair.. not blonde... thats my thing. stealing my style D: < gah. oh well. hmmm... satu still looks the same as when i last saw her... thats colol, thats ind of what i want, i dont want people to change, because ever one was so perfect to me before, even with all ya flaws XD
ohho man i'm cold i cant feel my fingers. why is it so fucking cold here, i like in Australia... its not meant to be cold! gah
i hate the cold... why am i going to finland... i'm mad.. thats it ive lost my mind DX

oh god, i went to Colleens Boyfriends party... he's only 16 but meh, what ever.

(omh i want Satu boobs.. their huge on this angle!)

but yeah anyway.. Loki is the boys name.. short for Lochlan i guess. FREAK omg huge freak. he THINKS he's a vamprie! and that he has multiple personalities, like... 8! and his ahir is like... HUGEEEEE!!!! like ihave never see hair like that not even on hairspray! not even if asanti was to gro a fro!
man! like he's not mean, just somehting wrong going on it there and this kid called Phillip... i wanted to smack him out with in 2 seconds of meating him. like bam, right in his face.. but i was wearing a long dress that cost me 100$ and i wanst gonna risk the blood cause its white. AND colleen wa attacking me on the floor cause i beat her at sing star and my bracelet got stuck in my dress and mad a run in the top near my boob! it took me hours and hours and HOURS to fix it just working away fisxing it and u know what. i FIXED IT BITCHES cause i'm good!

ok enough rant i'm good now n_n

with only 14 days remaining in Australia i have still got so so so soooo much to do. i have one week left at work which means i will have a week off before i come to finland.

OH Next top model in on. i'll finish this latter

nooo A.j was voted out that fails, i liked her D: <

oh well, YEAH. so yeah going away party in australia will be on this Saturday X3 its huge! like super huge. i know i bitch about being lonley and shit and that i'm kinda anti social here, but believe it or not, i had alotta friends in my town before i left and turns out most of them still love me to death so their all comming to say good bye to my fat white ass <3 and the friday before that i have Colleens boyfriends (he a freak oh so fucking freakishly freaky) birthday party, he's having a 'gothic' theme.... so instantly, i have brought myself some PVC, sexylicious black pvc to make myself a sexy goth cause i aint no drab wrist cutten be-ya-ch!

so yeah. i'm a little sad to be leaving. i have been thinking about if i dont come back i might not ever see my friends again, my family... every one... but... at the samre time, i'm so torn, because i now find that there are people in finland that i find it unbareable to live with out...
oh well.... in two week we shall see wont we.

me and dylan are so sad. we got onto Youtube tonight... for no reason and watche alll the starts of the pokemon anime... now for some over powering reason... i was pokeon season one as my ring tone. gotta love being a nerd XD
that... and we have started to play our gameboys again :D