Tänään on ollut jotenkin todella absurdi päivä. Mun pää on ollut vähällä räjähtää päänsärkyyn, mä olen tylsistynyt kuoliaaksi, olen nauranut aivoni pellolle, seonnut totaalisesti, itkenyt ja angstannut enemmän kuin laki sallii, ja fiilistellyt katsoen Queen of the Damnedia. Ja ehdin mä käydä rämpäyttämässä ihan vain pienen hetken todella nättiä 12 kielistä akustistakitaraa, se oli kyllä todella bella <3
Ah, ja ehdin jopa piipahtaa Jokelan kirjastossa toteamassa sen täysin surkeaksi, sillä ei sieltä löytynyt edes Tuulen viemää, joka sentään on niin klassikko, että se pitäisi löytyä vaikka mistä. Jokelan ärräkin kusi silmille, ostin jäätelön jossa luki että se on sorbettia, mutta ei se ollutkaan, normaalia vaniljajäätelöä se oli. Tekisi mieli sanoa tähän väliin TOU (vaikka en tuekkaan Simpsoneita missään määrin).
Tällä hetkellä mun vastapäistä seinää nojailee kitara, joka on lähes kaatopaikka kunnossa, mutta joka silti huutaa mua soittamaan. Mutta mä en mene. Mun vasemmalla puolella taas on patja, joka käskee mua nukkumaan, samoin kellokin. Mutta mä en mene. Mä jatkan aivotonta näytön tuijottamista ja mietin, minkä leffan katsoisin seuraavaksi. Katsoisin jonkun lempi leffoistani, mutta joko niitä ei löydy, tai sitten ne eivät lataudu. Niin mun tuuria.
Joo, oliko mulla asiaakin? No ei.
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Tässä vieläkin, olenko kenties juurtunut tähän olinpaikkaani kiinni, vai mikä on?
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[Ei aihetta]Sunnuntai 17.06.2007 22:14
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[x] Do you feel sad most of the time?
[x] Is the world a cruel and dark place?
[x] Do you write deep and a bit dark poems?
[x] Do you feel lonely often?
[x] Do you like sleeping?
[x] When you walk, do you always look down?
[x] Do you cut your hair by yourself?
[ ] Do you act older than your age?
[ ] In your best, are you a very good person to talk with?
[x] Do you have plenty of ideas that you want to make true?
[x] Are you a thinker?
Goth-person (8)
[x] Do you like nature?
[x] Do you own a corset?
[ ] Do you listen to at least 10 bands/artists that play gothic music? (No heavy, speed, metal, rock, etc)
[x] Are you very pale?
[x] Do you like decorating?
[x] When you watch a movie, do you choose it because of the plot, not because there are hot actors in it?
[ ] Do you use a lot of make-up?
[/] Do you make clothes for yourself?
[x] Do you believe that there are souls, spirits or ghosts in the world?
[/] Are you artistic?
[x] Do you love silence and loneliness more than a big group of people and lots of talking?
Heavy/metal-person (8½)
[ ] Do you have a long hair that you don't want to cut shorter?
[x] Do you like it when the singer yells/screams/growls mostly when singing?
[/] Do you think that God doesn't exist?
[x] Can you play air guitar in a believable way?
[x] Do you have pentagrams in your clothes or in other stuff that you wear?
[x] Do you like leather-clothing?
[x] Do you mosh?
[x] Do you have/want a black hair?
[x] Do you listen to at least 10 heavy/metal bands?
[x] Can you be seen using this hand signal: /,,/?
[ ] Do you like beer?
Wannabe-person (1½)
[ ] Are other people always right?
[ ] Do you follow fashion?
[ ] Do you change your best friend often?
[ ] Are you a totally different person in different situations?
[ ] Do you blame other people being wannabes/fakes?
[x] Have you troubles at knowing who you are?
[ ] Do you think that you know everything about the other when looking his/her clothing?
[ ] Do you get confused in a big group of different kind of people?
[/] Do you always want to please others?
[ ] Are you in-secured about yourself?
[ ] Do you need someone's opinion before you can buy something (like jeans for example)?
J-rock person (7)
[x] Do you like manga and anime?
[x] Do you know the record companies to whom the bands work?
[x] Do you like Japanese food?
[x] Do you like black clothes, but on the other hand you aren't afraid to use soft/shocking colors as well?
[x] Do you listen other music from Japan as well than (just) Dir en grey, Miyavi and Gackt?
[ ] Do you like small things that you can collect to your room/clothes?
[ ] Have you ever seen a J-rock band/artist live (even though you don't live in Japan)?
[ ] Do you have a shocking hair color?
[ ] Do you have piercings in other places than just in your ears?
[x] Do you think that everyone has the right to be who they are?
[x] Do you like second hand stores?
Hippie-person (6½)
[x] Do you think that war is worthless?
[x] Do you like to sing with friends, one playing guitar as a back round music?
[x] Do you hate when animals suffer?
[x] Have you ever taken part to a protest?
[ ] Do you have a long hair that you don't want to cut shorter?
[ ] Do you want to make sure that where your clothes are coming from and what material they are?
[x] Do you like to be barefoot or wear sandals?
[/] Do you work in some organization that wants to make the world a better place?
[ ] Do you have a garden where you get your own vegetables/fruits from?
[ ] Do you like soft, sweet melodies?
[x] Are you a bit radical, but mostly a nice person?
Rap-person (2½)
[ ] Do you strongly dislike some people because of the color of their skin?
[ ] Can you make rhythms out of the blue?
[ ] Can you do freestyle dancing?
[ ] Do you like to wear oversized clothes and very large jewels?
[ ] Was Tupac the greatest rapper ever?
[ ] Do you swear a lot?
[x] Do you use your hands a lot when you speak?
[/] Do you want to be so rich that you can almost wipe your ass with cash?
[ ] Do you want that when people speak to you, they use your nickname?
[x] Have you had troubles with the police?
[ ] When you mean to say 'the', do you say 'da' instead? *I live in Minnesota..da, sure, ya betcha..*
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[x] Do/did you get good grades at school?
[/] Does your mom buy your clothes?
[ ] Have you been bullied?
[/] Are you very shy when you are in the company of the opposite sex?
[ ] Do you play internet games on your free time?
[x] Can/could you be seen talking to the teachers just for fun?
[ ] Do/did teachers use you as a good example?
[ ] Is your best friend a family member?
[ ] Do you do scientist experiments at home?
[x] Have you been single all your life?
[ ] Is math one of your hobbies?
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[ ] Do you drink alcohol in public places with a group of friends?
[ ] Do you listen to list-music from the radio?
[ ] Is Paris Hilton your idol?
[ ] Can you be seen wearing strings and jeans (and yes, we can see the strings as well)?
[ ] Is one of these professions your dream: make-up artist, an actress, a model, a cosmetician?
[ ] Do you watch The O.C?
[/] Do you kiss your friends on the mouth?
[ ] Do you like celebrity rumors?
[/] Do you make a scene out of even the smallest things?
[ ] Do you like to scream and giggle loudly?
[ ] Have you had more than 5 boyfriends over the last six months?
Punk-person (6)
[x] Can you say that you are a rebellion?
[ ] Have you ever read a book called Nancy?
[x] Do older people shock when they see what you are wearing?
[ ] Do you have piercings in other places than just in your ears?
[x] Do you like safety pins?
[x] Do you love to wear band shirts?
[/] Do you listen any of these bands: Dead boys, New York Dolls, The Clash, Misfits, The Sex Pistols?
[ ] Do you know who Ged Dunn, John Holmstrom and Legs McNeil are?
[ ] Do you like shorter songs more than long songs?
[/] Do you think that violence and cutting are ok?
[x] Do you hate the society?
Pop-person (2½)
[x] Do you like dancing?
[ ] Do you like female singers who sing about love and partying?
[/] Do you like boy bands that play love songs?
[ ] Do you wear soft colors all the time?
[ ] Are you a romantic person?
[ ] Do you feel comfortable in clothes that show skin quite a lot?
[ ] Do you think that lyrics don't matter in a song?
[ ] Do you fall in love easily?
[ ] Do you wear a lot of make-up?
[ ] Do you like celebrity rumors?
[ ] Are you mostly seen wearing jeans?
[ ] Do you listen to at least 10 pop bands?
[x] Are you a daydreamer?
[x] Do you feel sad most of the time?
[x] Is the world a cruel and dark place?
[x] Do you write deep and a bit dark poems?
[x] Do you feel lonely often?
[x] Do you like sleeping?
[x] When you walk, do you always look down?
[x] Do you cut your hair by yourself?
[ ] Do you act older than your age?
[ ] In your best, are you a very good person to talk with?
[x] Do you have plenty of ideas that you want to make true?
[x] Are you a thinker?
Goth-person (8)
[x] Do you like nature?
[x] Do you own a corset?
[ ] Do you listen to at least 10 bands/artists that play gothic music? (No heavy, speed, metal, rock, etc)
[x] Are you very pale?
[x] Do you like decorating?
[x] When you watch a movie, do you choose it because of the plot, not because there are hot actors in it?
[ ] Do you use a lot of make-up?
[/] Do you make clothes for yourself?
[x] Do you believe that there are souls, spirits or ghosts in the world?
[/] Are you artistic?
[x] Do you love silence and loneliness more than a big group of people and lots of talking?
Heavy/metal-person (8½)
[ ] Do you have a long hair that you don't want to cut shorter?
[x] Do you like it when the singer yells/screams/growls mostly when singing?
[/] Do you think that God doesn't exist?
[x] Can you play air guitar in a believable way?
[x] Do you have pentagrams in your clothes or in other stuff that you wear?
[x] Do you like leather-clothing?
[x] Do you mosh?
[x] Do you have/want a black hair?
[x] Do you listen to at least 10 heavy/metal bands?
[x] Can you be seen using this hand signal: /,,/?
[ ] Do you like beer?
Wannabe-person (1½)
[ ] Are other people always right?
[ ] Do you follow fashion?
[ ] Do you change your best friend often?
[ ] Are you a totally different person in different situations?
[ ] Do you blame other people being wannabes/fakes?
[x] Have you troubles at knowing who you are?
[ ] Do you think that you know everything about the other when looking his/her clothing?
[ ] Do you get confused in a big group of different kind of people?
[/] Do you always want to please others?
[ ] Are you in-secured about yourself?
[ ] Do you need someone's opinion before you can buy something (like jeans for example)?
J-rock person (7)
[x] Do you like manga and anime?
[x] Do you know the record companies to whom the bands work?
[x] Do you like Japanese food?
[x] Do you like black clothes, but on the other hand you aren't afraid to use soft/shocking colors as well?
[x] Do you listen other music from Japan as well than (just) Dir en grey, Miyavi and Gackt?
[ ] Do you like small things that you can collect to your room/clothes?
[ ] Have you ever seen a J-rock band/artist live (even though you don't live in Japan)?
[ ] Do you have a shocking hair color?
[ ] Do you have piercings in other places than just in your ears?
[x] Do you think that everyone has the right to be who they are?
[x] Do you like second hand stores?
Hippie-person (6½)
[x] Do you think that war is worthless?
[x] Do you like to sing with friends, one playing guitar as a back round music?
[x] Do you hate when animals suffer?
[x] Have you ever taken part to a protest?
[ ] Do you have a long hair that you don't want to cut shorter?
[ ] Do you want to make sure that where your clothes are coming from and what material they are?
[x] Do you like to be barefoot or wear sandals?
[/] Do you work in some organization that wants to make the world a better place?
[ ] Do you have a garden where you get your own vegetables/fruits from?
[ ] Do you like soft, sweet melodies?
[x] Are you a bit radical, but mostly a nice person?
Rap-person (2½)
[ ] Do you strongly dislike some people because of the color of their skin?
[ ] Can you make rhythms out of the blue?
[ ] Can you do freestyle dancing?
[ ] Do you like to wear oversized clothes and very large jewels?
[ ] Was Tupac the greatest rapper ever?
[ ] Do you swear a lot?
[x] Do you use your hands a lot when you speak?
[/] Do you want to be so rich that you can almost wipe your ass with cash?
[ ] Do you want that when people speak to you, they use your nickname?
[x] Have you had troubles with the police?
[ ] When you mean to say 'the', do you say 'da' instead? *I live in Minnesota..da, sure, ya betcha..*
Nerd-person (4)
[x] Do/did you get good grades at school?
[/] Does your mom buy your clothes?
[ ] Have you been bullied?
[/] Are you very shy when you are in the company of the opposite sex?
[ ] Do you play internet games on your free time?
[x] Can/could you be seen talking to the teachers just for fun?
[ ] Do/did teachers use you as a good example?
[ ] Is your best friend a family member?
[ ] Do you do scientist experiments at home?
[x] Have you been single all your life?
[ ] Is math one of your hobbies?
Queen-teen-person (1)
[ ] Do you drink alcohol in public places with a group of friends?
[ ] Do you listen to list-music from the radio?
[ ] Is Paris Hilton your idol?
[ ] Can you be seen wearing strings and jeans (and yes, we can see the strings as well)?
[ ] Is one of these professions your dream: make-up artist, an actress, a model, a cosmetician?
[ ] Do you watch The O.C?
[/] Do you kiss your friends on the mouth?
[ ] Do you like celebrity rumors?
[/] Do you make a scene out of even the smallest things?
[ ] Do you like to scream and giggle loudly?
[ ] Have you had more than 5 boyfriends over the last six months?
Punk-person (6)
[x] Can you say that you are a rebellion?
[ ] Have you ever read a book called Nancy?
[x] Do older people shock when they see what you are wearing?
[ ] Do you have piercings in other places than just in your ears?
[x] Do you like safety pins?
[x] Do you love to wear band shirts?
[/] Do you listen any of these bands: Dead boys, New York Dolls, The Clash, Misfits, The Sex Pistols?
[ ] Do you know who Ged Dunn, John Holmstrom and Legs McNeil are?
[ ] Do you like shorter songs more than long songs?
[/] Do you think that violence and cutting are ok?
[x] Do you hate the society?
Pop-person (2½)
[x] Do you like dancing?
[ ] Do you like female singers who sing about love and partying?
[/] Do you like boy bands that play love songs?
[ ] Do you wear soft colors all the time?
[ ] Are you a romantic person?
[ ] Do you feel comfortable in clothes that show skin quite a lot?
[ ] Do you think that lyrics don't matter in a song?
[ ] Do you fall in love easily?
[ ] Do you wear a lot of make-up?
[ ] Do you like celebrity rumors?
[ ] Are you mostly seen wearing jeans?
[ ] Do you listen to at least 10 pop bands?
[x] Are you a daydreamer?
[Ei aihetta]Sunnuntai 17.06.2007 21:45
Mun fiilis on ollut jo jonkin aikaan sellainen aika hassu, jotenkin tyhjä. Jos johonkin sitä voisi verrata, niin sanoisin olevani henkiseltä minältäni emotionaalisesti vajavainen poika tällä hetkellä. Fyysisestä olomuodosta en sitten yhtään tiedä. Enkä uskalla edes lähteä arvailemaan.
//EDIT
Ja tyhjänpaperinkammo on varmasti maailman rasittavin asia maailmassa
//EDIT
Ja tyhjänpaperinkammo on varmasti maailman rasittavin asia maailmassa
[Ei aihetta]Sunnuntai 17.06.2007 16:35
Tuntuu vain,
kuin kello tikittäisi tyhjää
viisareiden liikkumatta
ajattomassa ajassa
etsien tietään pimeästä.
****
Kahleissa kulkieassa
polut käyvät pitkiksi ja kapeiksi,
mutkat selvittämättömiksi rämeiköiksi.
****
Oikeat kasvot peittyvät hiljalleen maskien taakse,
ne painavat sisimmän ulommas,
kauemmas kuin oli tarkoitus.
****
Pimeän ja valon rajamailla,
ei ole valmiita tekoja tai pitämättömiä naruja; siellä olet vapaa kulkemaan
tai omasta itsestäsi eksymään.
kuin kello tikittäisi tyhjää
viisareiden liikkumatta
ajattomassa ajassa
etsien tietään pimeästä.
****
Kahleissa kulkieassa
polut käyvät pitkiksi ja kapeiksi,
mutkat selvittämättömiksi rämeiköiksi.
****
Oikeat kasvot peittyvät hiljalleen maskien taakse,
ne painavat sisimmän ulommas,
kauemmas kuin oli tarkoitus.
****
Pimeän ja valon rajamailla,
ei ole valmiita tekoja tai pitämättömiä naruja; siellä olet vapaa kulkemaan
tai omasta itsestäsi eksymään.
[Ei aihetta]Perjantai 15.06.2007 21:02
Olen aivan kuin ekstaasissa, vähintään. Ajhdjhs,an, piiiuuuuuuu. Pum.
Oliko edes mahtavaa, tai seko meno, tai mitään? Oli niin uskomatonta, paras keikka koko elämäni aikana! KoRn takaisin Suomeen taas, kuin olisi jo!
Ehkä me Hansun kanssa vielä joskus selvitään tästä, mutta ei ihan vielä, ei nyt.
Oliko edes mahtavaa, tai seko meno, tai mitään? Oli niin uskomatonta, paras keikka koko elämäni aikana! KoRn takaisin Suomeen taas, kuin olisi jo!
Ehkä me Hansun kanssa vielä joskus selvitään tästä, mutta ei ihan vielä, ei nyt.
[Ei aihetta]Torstai 07.06.2007 03:13
Kuinka paljon suru odottaa takaisin maksua
paljon se perii hintaa
niinkin kuin rikkinäiseltä, palasiksi särkyneeltä?
Kohtuullista muistaa kaipuunsa
enemmän kuin oikeudellista käpertyä matkan varrella, pyytää:
aika pysäytä, pitele minua
***
Kuiskaa talolle, se hengittää yhä
Kylmästii joku painaisi oven kiinni ja puhaltaisi;
haaveiden loukko, täydellinen.
***
Ok, tänään taisi alkaa jo omat hälytysvalot vilkkua, mutta kuka niitä nyt kuuntelee? Oli aika pirun heikko ja paha olo loppu päivästä taas, mutta eikö lisää vain. Noo, tuskallinen ja hidas kuolema, niinhän sanotaan aina :D Minkäs ihmeinen voi sille että stressaa. Mutta jee jee, oloa parantamaan sillä, että pääsee kaivariin sunnuntaina, ja oioi, tuskaan kuun lopulla! Sitten kyllä on ihme jos stressistä näkyy silloin enää jälkeäkään.
Jup, ja maininta sillekkin, että enää 138h 50min Kornin keikkaan <3
paljon se perii hintaa
niinkin kuin rikkinäiseltä, palasiksi särkyneeltä?
Kohtuullista muistaa kaipuunsa
enemmän kuin oikeudellista käpertyä matkan varrella, pyytää:
aika pysäytä, pitele minua
***
Kuiskaa talolle, se hengittää yhä
Kylmästii joku painaisi oven kiinni ja puhaltaisi;
haaveiden loukko, täydellinen.
***
Ok, tänään taisi alkaa jo omat hälytysvalot vilkkua, mutta kuka niitä nyt kuuntelee? Oli aika pirun heikko ja paha olo loppu päivästä taas, mutta eikö lisää vain. Noo, tuskallinen ja hidas kuolema, niinhän sanotaan aina :D Minkäs ihmeinen voi sille että stressaa. Mutta jee jee, oloa parantamaan sillä, että pääsee kaivariin sunnuntaina, ja oioi, tuskaan kuun lopulla! Sitten kyllä on ihme jos stressistä näkyy silloin enää jälkeäkään.
Jup, ja maininta sillekkin, että enää 138h 50min Kornin keikkaan <3
[Ei aihetta]Tiistai 05.06.2007 02:50
Miksi kaikki asiat, joiden pitäisi olla niin yksinkertasia ja muuten vaan turhia tai pitkän päälle lähes merkityksettömiä, ovat niitä kaikkein tärkeimpiä?
Onko missään vaiheessa mitään mahdollisuutta päästää irti elämästä ja antaa vaan mennä?
Onko missään vaiheessa mitään mahdollisuutta päästää irti elämästä ja antaa vaan mennä?
[Ei aihetta]Maanantai 04.06.2007 02:07
Vain tuska meidät herättää
selvästi hetken näkemään
Värit lyö mielen ikkunaan
ja tunteet pikakelataan
selvästi hetken näkemään
Värit lyö mielen ikkunaan
ja tunteet pikakelataan
[Ei aihetta]Sunnuntai 03.06.2007 23:05
Aevan mahtava miitinki! : D KOPS Ryttylässä, pahapahapaha
"Kyrpä korvan takana, ei otsassa, kyrpä korvassa, vielä"
Hombre hombre, señorita, señorita, JAU.
Kiitti kaikille, tuskassa sitten tavataan taas.
"Kyrpä korvan takana, ei otsassa, kyrpä korvassa, vielä"
Hombre hombre, señorita, señorita, JAU.
Kiitti kaikille, tuskassa sitten tavataan taas.
[Ei aihetta]Maanantai 28.05.2007 01:02
If you were my child I'd carry you away
I'd travel through time, before silence was born
No hope for the child, this world has gone bad.
When when's today, the machines say, what is a man to do
No light, only sufforcating dark
deep
burning
pain
I'm losing everything I am
remember nothing of my past
Now, it is all gone,
and I fear the Game is Over.
save me, save me, save me, take me away, away from this time,
back where lies my home
Where is my home... Where is my home... Where is my home...
my grass isn't green...
my sky isn't blue...
The river runs dry...
my flower has died...
This isn't my home
I follow the moon to find a path away
from the scorching sun...
I follow the stars to my abode, it's burning...
I seize the moment to hear a story no ones telling anymore
the worlds forgotten, the words forbidden.
I'd travel through time, before silence was born
No hope for the child, this world has gone bad.
When when's today, the machines say, what is a man to do
No light, only sufforcating dark
deep
burning
pain
I'm losing everything I am
remember nothing of my past
Now, it is all gone,
and I fear the Game is Over.
save me, save me, save me, take me away, away from this time,
back where lies my home
Where is my home... Where is my home... Where is my home...
my grass isn't green...
my sky isn't blue...
The river runs dry...
my flower has died...
This isn't my home
I follow the moon to find a path away
from the scorching sun...
I follow the stars to my abode, it's burning...
I seize the moment to hear a story no ones telling anymore
the worlds forgotten, the words forbidden.